Here am I, taking some time off, just to be alone, interceding for my girls rather being there physically. Yesterday evening, during 1st session, my heart was so sceptical, I was sarcastically thinking of how WOW-ed this conference is and despite so many students, why Sabah is still so poor spiritually? The Lord rebuke me.....and asked me to fast and pray for them. I was reluctant, but Ps Daniel message confirmed to me, Mark 9:29. My heart was unrest, throughout the conference, it is just I do not know who can I share with....Lord, You know my heart best....so please grant me discernment and wisdom of what and how should I do....I know You are great....I pray that you will be gracious and pull me out of spirit of comparison. Help me to be who I am and be a proud daughter of Yours.
I know this is a season of quietness, where I should zipped my mouth, and just continue to trust You. There are many plans and desire ahead...but Lord, what is it that You are calling me to do ? Help me Lord, to understand Your calling. Help me to unload everything to You Abba! How long should I bear this burden? I just wish there would people who would understand what I am thinking, but I know I am unique and there is none would understand, and I know You will reveal Your plan to me.
My one desire...Lord revive these kids of mine. I stand in the gap for them, I come before the throne room of God and present them before Abba, that by the blood of Christ, they will be protected, emotionally, spiritually, physically. Lord I cried out to You on behalf of this state of Sabah, vindicate Your people, let revival happen in this place Abba! Thank You Jesus....You are good :)
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