28 October 2016 - Amazing Grace

After 2 weeks I am up and running again. Today had gathering with all the Stradford Students at one of the guy hostel. The more I spent time with them, the more I want to see breakthrough in this ministry. Each time I see their humbleness and how some of the students who had took my words and the words of those who taught them seriously, esp on life skills and money management it moved my heart to the core.

I began today with a lunch meal with a student couple. Everything was a first time today. I don't really know what to talk, what structure I should use, and how do I really struck conversation with them, yet I had been asking the Lord to guide me. I had this paper that I translated into BM about self worth, so after a good good meal, somehow I started this...

I asked them to describe themselves so they know themselves well, then suddenly the idea of having them to write about their other half, and then the ideas just flow and we managed to struck quite a good conversation, praise God. Am amazed by how God lead me. Then I went and get rice for the 3 hostels and then bought chicken, vege, fish balls to cook soup in the hostel for them. And then my cake is ready and being sent to me. I praise God, one cake would easily cost me RM80 or more, and I have 48 students all, surely one is not enough, 2 would be even more expensive, my colleague's mom agree to bake for me at RM 60 for 2 cakes. God always know how to meet my needs. When I ask of Him, He never fail to answer me.

Aikkkssss, I din manage to capture a good shot :(

Ah, this is a better one.

Today's gathering is pretty much done by all students, I gave every hostel RM30 for food, 3 hostel, but the food they produced is not really up to my expectation. But it's all right, and the Lord multiply the food, initially I was thinking, another 2 hostel only manage to buy biscuits and one make jelly, they could have done much more, like hostel 20 that fried bihun and I believe they spent more than 30 ringgit for the food, but their heart is willing to bless. 

Another thing that moved my heart, while they were frying the bihun, gas habis, and so I was shocked, what they did was they gonna carry the tong gas to the kedai runcit about 1km away...in exchange for new one for RM30. If they asked them to send, it would be additional RM 1, and they told me "tak apa la sis, satu ringgit boleh kita jimat". I was shocked, and me being me, how could I just leave it, so, up the tong masuk my myvi passenger seat, and I brought them to kedai runcit, and they brought out every shillings they had with RM20. I have been pampering them lots, now I am also learning to hold, and let them have the responsibilities to manage money well. But it just break my heart to see them in this condition, so I went and 'angkat' the amma taukeh, sweet talk them and told them these are the poor students from Sabah studying here with minimal support, and ask Aunty not to charge them extra for sending the tong gas when it is finished next time, and Aunty graciously say yes, and I pray she will honor her words.

Oh Lord, how can I find more resources for them, and help them? There's too many of them now, help me Daddy..

We are starting the next new 3 cg next week, and Lord please empower the student leader that I had raised. Help them to grow, and continue to grow.

These are Your precious ones.

With the little soups and rice and fried beehun, it filled all the 48 empty stomach, hehe...the Lord is good.

Lord I just love them....these are the next generation, Lord, raise them up....

And our games time. How will I grow weary being with these people, it is such joy...

And the guys preparing food :)

The harvest is plentiful, pray for the Lord of harvest to send worker to the field :)

16-10-16 GMC

First time in my life being admitted to hospital. This experience I would not want to have to ever again...not many ppl know I was admitted, don't want ppl to disturb me. Having a good rest here. Thank God my fear doesn't come true...all the reports are good, and I guess I can be rest assured all I need to do is just more rest and not other else. 

First time kena pasang drip tube...

And the EEG, look so like the criminal truth or lie game. 

My initial blood pressure, shocking high. 

Tomorrow I'll be able to discharge already...and hope I can really learn to let go and rest...

When the going get tough, the tough gets going

Hmm, as the heading says...sometimes

I wish I'm not that tough. I'm still asking myself, is it worth it? Guess end of the day despite all the negative things that are happening around me...yea, am still that tough ironlady that knew very well that Abba Daddy is with Celina.

Sometimes just couldn't comprehend the misused of the word empowering, was this empowering or merely a push of responsibilities? Everyone wants to take easy way out, but what does the Lord require? Lord, help me!

I'm not the best teacher, I'm not the best leader, in fact I'm not anything, but just a willing vessel willing to be used by Him. And many times this willingness really cost a bomb out of me...and I have to constantly asked the Lord to search my heart...is there anything offensive, Lord just help me. Many things I don't understand, especially the human nature, one type of rice eaten by billions of ppl, yet the people itself is an intriguing factor...as how the chinese proverb go. I just on a ride with Christ's grace and mercy. I know it's just a test of time...time will come when all will be exposed into light and I'm believing for Him to work that miracle out of me...so Lord, I ask of You today, help me always always to look to You, the author and finisher of my faith...

Hanging on to You,

Your beloved daughter

Must capture this

Super super sleepy but have to capture this in my memory. Little thing have me joy in my heart. Joe, a boy with such gentle spirit. I asked for volunteer to teach in Sunday school among the girls, mandak means ladies in Bahasa Dusun. And this boy raise his hand and said he is Sunday sch teacher. Pray that he will grow in favor and stature. Lord, you raise him up! 

If I looked to men, I will surely fall...

Today's Bible Verse (29th Sept 2016)

Lamentations 3:25
The LORD is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him. (ESV)

Today's Inspiring Thought: Don't Be in Such a Hurry

In our fast-paced, drive-thru, high speed, instant everything world today, waiting on God seems like a foreign concept. But the Lord is good to those who wait for him.

Matthew Henry writes in his Commentary on the Whole Bible regarding this verse, "While trouble is prolonged, and deliverance is deferred, we must patiently wait for God and his gracious returns to us.

While we wait for him by faith, we must seek him by prayer: our souls must seek him, else we do not seek so as to find. Our seeking will help to keep up our waiting. And to those who thus wait and seek God will be gracious; he will show them his marvelous lovingkindness."

The past week have been really challenging. One after another, just like a javelin pierced into my heart. The comfort of knowing Him, as long as I keep looking to the cross, keep looking and keep looking, I know I will gain my strength, but it's still tiring, to have people saying things but never doing it, to have the promises broken, for sake of impressing others, etc. Everyone have their own personal agenda, and what agenda do I have? Other than just serving a true and living God? What is so difficult of just lending a helping hand though it's out of the normal responsibilities? It's really a scary world we are living in, everyone is only looking for interest of themselves...Lord how about me?

Many times I sow in tears, but I reap in joy, but is that really so normal? How far can I go? As far as the Lord leads me? Hmm, a lot of uncertainties, but guess only God will I be able to hang on. 

People, young people, children, they have always been my heartbeat, to reach and love, I enjoyed every bit of it, ministering and talking and encouraging them, but how come ministry could be so challeging when I enjoyed it? Because of human factor. Lord, help me! 

Each time I was discouraged, I kept pushing myself, and push and push...and in the end still feel satisfy, because even the slightest smile on the student face gave me joy. Today my quietest boy, he lead in the song, though the guitarist help most, but still, that's a bold step, even to be able to tell us to rise and let's sing our first song. I am just a simple and easily contented gal, little little things touched me. After cg we had surprised makan, the boy fried rice for us...God bless this young man heart. Of so many students, yes, 1 or 2, whose heart fully into the Lord...that would give me much joy, as long as they acknowledge that Jesus is good and they know how to be appreciative of the things given to them by Gods grace.

My Stradford 1 students. What joy to see them smile.

Lord, help me to run in this journey, not with my pastors pace but with Your pace. You are good, always and forever ! 

Really Amazing Race 26 Sept 2016

I was exhausted to the max. Slept 730pm ystd till 730am this morning. I guess I really had drained all my energy for this camp. All my life, I always wonder, how come I always seems to walk alone in this journey...but I know, it is through this journey Abba appear to me even more real. The journey where when everyone despise me, I know Abba doesn't. That makes me strong and not my own strength but I know the Lord who is in me is greater than anything else on this earth. The joy of seeing fruit of my labor is indescribable. 

Today I searched through my old journal to find the paper which I wrote in year 1992 when I first accepted the Lord many many years ago, to find it had faded...the date when I first made commitment to the Lord that I will serve Him with all my heart, with all my strength and all my might. On Saturday night when we were having campfire at camp, God just reminded me...24 years ago, you made this commitment, u threw the branch, signifying I am the branches that God will use to serve Him...after 24 good years, here am I, serving Him in full capacity. It's really not easy, many heart issues to deal with, but I know God will bring me through, read some of the journals I had written and most of it are of I'm climbing and never seems to reach destination, flowers that is yet to bloom, etc...as I look back, yea...it would take many many years as Abba is not done with me yet. Sometimes I asked God to take away burden so strong for the lost souls, but it remained so strong still, sometimes it's just too hard to bear, but when I looked to the cross, Christ even bore much more...

This date 24th Sept 2016, God reminded me again, the promises and desire I placed into His hand...and I will still pursue on. Thank You Abba !

As I think back the tears I shed for the needs of the ministry, it's really worth it all, seeing the growth, seeing life touched and changed, seeing God ministered to individual life, I just can't stop my tears of joy and thank the Lord for all He have been to me. It has been a tough decision, yet through it all it is worth it all. 

18 Sept 2016 Welcoming Lunch @ EPCC Summit

5pm

I am abit tired now, woke up 5am, don't know what's troubling me, but as usual, when I woke up early without any reason I knew it is the time the Lord wants me to pray, lazily I got up and read the scripture. Praying for the welcoming lunch sharing and all to go well. Early in the morning got message to ask me bring new visitor materials for the church as it was depleted, I was quite upset, why the last minute? But thank God, reluctantly I went back office at 815am, opened office door, not knowing where is all the barang and looking for it high and low, anyway, managed to bring it and reached church late, but coz it was raining so heavily, service haven't start, and praise God I was still on time anyway.

Today when Joe was sharing testimony, I was so encouraged, never knew the time when I brought him out to eat last few months ago, that's when he only have one meal in the morning till 1030pm when I brought them to supper after cell group. Again, I am always answered prayer to others, and now God is the one always meeting my needs. Last 2 days I was planning to buy rice to all the 3 hostels, just in my thought, Abba, who are you going to supply now? And ystd a student told me she wanna give, 14 packs of 5kg rice, for a student working in a sundry shop to earn her tuition fees, that's a lot but because God placed on her the burden when I brought them all out last Friday, she caught the vision to ministry to her own anak Sabah, how wonderful is my God. He is never too late! 

Here comes the beras

Small myvi boot w 14 packs of 5kg rice across the bridge :)

Just a one time meeting and this beautiful girl catch the burden. PTL!

How do u put 10 ppl in this paper, this creative kids came out w this idea. Haha

Finally after a long day, went out makan w these new kids on the college, ah Moy cina dgn baju kurung bawa 4 org yg nampak macam Muslim pergi makan Babi and I became center of attention, ppl looked at my baju first, then my face, that's what my student told me 😛

So much accomplished today, and I just can't help but want this to be a reminder again of Gods faithfulness to me.

I'm now in contact w a used-to-be-editor for my book writing, not sure this will be accomplished, well, pray God will make it a reality, not for my own glory but for His.

I wrote better than I speak, but I pray God will sharpen me to speak forth His words with confident. Am all right sharing my testimony and word of God, but when come to being a MC and meetings on big big group I would just lost my words..I'm still work in progress.

And the joy of the Lord will always be my strength! 

8pm - another event of Gods faithfulness. How great is our God...

Trials after Trials...still standing strong

13 Sept 2016 - 4.10 pm 

Time for some reflections and while studying the book of Samuel, stumble upon King Saul life...and these past months been really challenging, the more I am getting myself into ministry the more opposition I face, but guess through it all...He is still with me, and being an iron lady, still am going strong...

Had great time with my nephews last 2 days, despite they are not well, and despite of my packed schedules, I still could make time for many things. I pray God will continue to grant me this kind of energy up till the time I go to meet Him. Missing my dad alot...10 more days it would be his 13 years of going home...at times I wonder, how would it be if he is still around...anyway, no point to wonder coz its not going to happen. Having quite heavy burden over mom for past weeks, she have not been well, admitted last week, and today she was vomiting and having diarrhea pula...and I was super tied with students work and the campus camp. Last week really kenot tahan that I just broke down in front of pastor, was shouldering so much things and I feel so lonely. I wish I could be more steady and consistent in my walk with Abba and not to be shaken...but guess God understand me, He has made me this way, a fragile heart...and today I learn something which I hope God will help me to have a elephant skin. Sometimes, I guess working in corporate world is so much simpler...everyone have KPI and everyone in the Dept just need to flow along and make sure KPI is achieved and together everyone will work as a team to get to that point. Execution doesnt seems to be that difficult, probably I have the authority there....but in a full time context...hmm...everyone will have their own ideas...and its again another phase of life...where I need to learn to have better EQ and grace...Lord, help me !

Yesterday also was quite a gloomy day....less than a year....so much things changed. Heart was again crushed...but guess this is the final one...I wish I could just speak to someone....but I know there is no point talking over it...today, this message minister to my heart...Let it go....Let it go....

Let It Go! – Part 2

September 10, 2016

“But some scoundrels said, ‘How can this fellow save us?’ They despised him and brought him no gifts. But Saul kept silent.” (1 Samuel 10:27 NIV)

In order to serve God and be used by him to become a leader in God’s house in any small or big way, you have to have two kinds of skin: You have to be tender like a baby toward God and toward the people to whom you’re ministering, but you have to have elephant skin when it comes to what the scoundrels are saying. There are many people who have a tenderness toward the Lord, but don’t know how to ignore people who are foolish. Thus, with any little mosquito that goes by, they get discouraged and want to quit. There are others, however, who only have elephant skin, and God can’t use them, because they have no sensitivity toward God or toward people’s needs.

So don’t concentrate on what “he said” or “she said.” If people attacked and maligned King Saul – not to mention the apostle Paul and Jesus himself – it can happen to us as well.

Saul was very wise, for he said nothing in response to the naysayers. He’s going to make a lot of mistakes in his kingship, but not this day. No, this day, he lets the foolish people ramble on. Oh, how good it is to just ignore! That’s more easily said than done, because we could easily get caught up, always obsessing over whether or not someone liked what we said, or wondering, “How about if I made a mistake?” Sadly, there are people who have gone nowhere for decades because they’re worried about what people might think. You have to know that even if God were to use you as he used John the Baptist, there would still be people criticizing it, so you have to just let it go! You have to do what Saul did here. Just ignore it and think to yourself, “You’re not going to take away my peace. You’re not bothering me. No, I know what God wants me to do, and God’s blessing me, so I’m keeping on…”

I do not choose to be in front lines...it is God who had placed me...and whatever it is He is going to bring me through. 

Just have to hang in there...and see the victory that I would be rejoicing over it...

Ending this chapter for now

Sitting here alone at secret recipe, enjoying my RM3 coffee on a Monday evening and consciously taking time to blog once again.

I will be ending this blog before it became too public. These will be a very memorable site for me, all the joys and pains when I was in sabah, till now that I am a full time staff...all are well written down here. I am still praying one day I will be able to finish writing a book, because I have so much of stories to tell and share, how Abba God had brought me from level to another.

Yesterday evening I had a dream, I dreamt of going shopping at Giant, I picked up a handbag and groceries from a trolley which doesn't belong to me, and I went high and low looking for management office to send back the handbag, and then I heard announcement of someone loosing handbag and with a pitiful voice asking for generous soul to return the handbag. When I was there I insisted the owner to pick up from me because the world so evil that if I leave to officer it probably will not return to the owner. Then I woke up, and what was the message to me? Guess it's of lesson to be prudent and diligent...

Last few weeks I kept having migraine and even now as I am typing I could feel my head is aching. I can only cried out to Abba for healing. Last Saturday o almost broke down coz I was so so tired, yet, I hang on to Him, seeing the students grow and imparting them was my utmost desire, but somehow besides these, I was also the transport coordinator, driver for worship practice, and anything to do with the students, I'll have a part to play, sometimes I wonder where is the boundary, where's the balance? I find it fulfilling when I have personal chat and prayer w students but I don't want to be running around doing church, planning for events which has nothing to do with students and coordinating stuff. 

I don't know where all this will lead, just pray for Jesus to guide me and be the keeper of my heart !

Tears of Joy - 9/7/16 12.30am

Im just reminded of the verse that those who sow in tears will reap in joy. As I am writing this, my tears just couldn't stop flowing...how do I ended up being a full time worker and now are impacting life of young people, how God had placed such burden for the people and how God had enable to me do greater things. 

I was a girl full of fears and concern. Despite all the inadequacy, God kept challenges me to rise up and take position, and I am slowly allowing God to really take control and hold that sterling of my life's wheel. It's really scary at times but all the more I am seeing Hos glory. 

I desire to drive the van and pick them for outings, bring them to places they have never been, and God gave me courage to drive the van although my heart is full of fears but God really took care of me and the ppl I fetched. Never in my life I could imagine driving a van of 15 ppl, and going to place like teluk bahang, never also it crosses my mind to access the places that I need to drive until that moment can and I got shock of myself that how come I never think of it before, anyway I drive with the confidence God has given me.

Van with loads of them

Then the camp took event with just less than 2 weeks planning and one time meeting with 3 students which I did not even know them or work with them before. But somehow we clicked and things got running. They had enjoyed themselves and the most joy is seeing all of them having a change of heart, to be open with one another and boldness in sharing after much encouragement.

This scene moved me deeply...because I literally see how this young boy shed his tears, if it's not God, who else? It's never in my agenda to have this session, but somehow just a simple get together to pray and God just moved. Lord, I am so so amazed by You.

So much fun we had, as well as throughout the trip I could feel the bonding between them. Despite the big hu ha about the other 3 boys and also one student's sudden death of her sis, God moved among these people, such encouragement to hear these testimony from them, it really brought me so so much joy. These time and money sown into their life is never in vain, God, thank You, thank You so so so much for Your love! 

Such joy

No Words to Describe my Feeling

4th July 2016 11pm.

Wanted so much to get my beauty sleep, but I have to insist to write down lest I forgot. The last 2 weeks have been really exciting. Here is the summary of it :

End May : Kairos Course - thinking of where the Lord actually place me, am I at the right place, being a missionary, full time worker, pastor, etc ? Where the Lord is leading me? Have a good chat with Malcolm and Linda and God confirmed what was in my heart - stay put in Penang and take care of Stradford students.

Early June : Lost of luggage in Sabah, despite that, God's assurance is so evident, that peace that surpassed understandings.

12th June - Pr Paul Ang's meeting - Mencari Wajah Tuhan, Ask of the Lord...ASK...and I began to ask more.

Leader's training 15th June 16 - Power of the Holy Spirit
1 John 2:20, 27 - The annointing which you received from Him abides in you, He will teaches you concerning ALL things. The way God teaches is through annointing.

21&23 June - Dr Pat Francis Conference. I didnt plan to go for this, yet God made a way for me to go as the class in EPCC is cancelled. It was so divine...I have been asking the Lord on financial planning, on how to get more money...how can i serve the kingdom of God when I dont have much to offer and now the students are poor, how can I be a blessing to them. In the morning before the meeting, God gave me Deut 8:18 - You shall remember the Lord Your God for it is He who gives you the power to get wealth and so that He may establish His covenant which he swore to your fathers as it is this today. She shared about how she asked God for funds for her poor students and how God pour it out to her...in amazing way, and the key is...Desire comes first, then He will give the ability.

End June : I got my confirmation and the money I can be used to meet needs for the SIC Students. At least I no longer need to ache much for providing to them. God miraculously provide RM 700 from WA funds. Then God challenged the RM 500 into building fund. Today I got back RM 500 that I had sown into the building fund. All my cries been heard and answered :)

On Healing....I was struggling quite abit due to faith, unbelieve and reality, but God today proof me wrong again, the lesson given by Raymond Mooi was so timely. When I spoke to my friend, I do not know where does the revelation came from. He just gave wisdom and I just talk as if I had prepared the script long time ago. Such a good good God I have

On Provision...suddenly, after so long, never know BRIM sudah masuk my account, without even me realising it.

Oh there are so so much to be thankful for....and I know there is more to come.

Of His Reassuring Love

This is my sharing to the team about my mission trip to Sabah. I wrote this yesterday in the evening and at night I was at the Power to Create Wealth conference and Dr Pat Francis made a remarks which so resound in my heart, "it all start with desire, then God will give the ability, availability comes before ability. Her example of how she asked God for the poor and deprived youth, and how God provided was so good, this is what I face now, the students are poor but not because of the environment is notorious but just they are not exposed and taught the way it should be, and I have always asked, what am I going to do, how do i creatively stir their talent and allow them to be groom? The answer is Ask, Ask the Lord of the harvest ! 

This is the testimony I sent for my team mate : 

Blessed Assurance

As I am writing this, God brought me back to the memory of my first mission trip with KL First AOG to Cambodia almost 3 years ago, the prophesy I heard and the vision that God had placed in my heart…and now itseems that it had fallen into places. I believe there is no such thing as co-incident and things just happen, but all our steps are ordained by the Lord (Prov 20:24). Never knew that very first connection I had with mission team in KL First AOG to Cambodia became a divine appointment that leads me this far to a full time calling in Penang. 

The trip this time round was a bit different in a sense that I am already a full time staff in a church. It was also a last minute planning and decision for me to join the team after getting blessings from my pastor. It was also the first time we are having Children Camp in the 2 villages, and children have always been precious in my heart. I went with much anticipation and confidence this time, praying that Abba would minister and allow the children to absorb whatever that they have learned.

On the first day when we were making journey up to Kota Marudu, there were some hiccups as the villager who was supposed to pick us up did not turn up due to vehicle issue. I was not at all concern, because I know Abba will take care of it because we are in His business, and my experiences of long term stay in the village last year have taught me that everything going to be all right ultimately. Then we managed to get the Ketua Sidang in SIB Tagaroh to fetch us up to Kg Gontoi. When we arrived at Kg Gontoi, my luggage was missing from the vehicle. Of all the things, my luggage dropped on the way up, probably due to the bumpy road that makes room for my luggage to slipped from the ropes and fell. My first reaction was, “Praise God, I just separated out my childrens materials from my luggage into one plastic bag before we went up to village, and it won’t affect my lesson”. Despite the bad news, my heart is totally at peace, because I know ultimately He is in control. Just that my concern is my eyes because my spectacles, contact lens case and saline are all in my luggage, and without it, I couldn’t see as my short-sighted is quite bad.Well, I do not have choice, I just have to make-do with whatever I have, so every night I would be putting my lenses into a bottle of mineral water and the next day I would wore it back again. I praise God for supportive team, one of my funny team mate, Ivan prayed on the first night, “Lord you turn water into wine, now Lord you turn water into saline for Celina”. It may seems like a funny prayer, but yea, I caught the miracle that God performed in Cana 2000 years ago and proclaim as what Ivan had prayed. The next day, I wore back the lenses, and it was all fine and that went on for 4 nights. The first night I was abit cautious on cleanliness of my hands, after experiencing His favor for 2 nights, the 3rd night, I am more relaxed because I know I am in good hand. I have never ever dare to risk anything especially with my eyes, and I knew the hazards of wearing contact lens for long hours, but in the village, without much choice, I knew God will see me through and indeed He preserved my eyes from any harm.

When I came down from village, I checked with one of my friend who is an optician, she was saying it is truly not advisable to do that, and the many articles I read about soaking contact lens properly and its risks, again it proof that God indeed had perform that miracle for keeping my eyes in perfect condition. On a normal days,there would be times when I would had eyes irritation even when I had proper care of my lenses, but throughout the 4 long day, my eyes is in perfectcondition. Indeed God is good.

Of course, needless to say about all other things, clothes, innerwear, toothbrush, towel, etc, all other toiletries, Ithank God for good team mates who willingly lend/giveme some of their belongings despite them needing it for themselves. I am really encouraged with the team spirit that we had throughout the mission trip, despite no clear leader leading the team. It is like we are all leaders, handling different roles at different times, each contributed their best for the people in the villagers.

God have never fail to re-assurance me, the questions and doubts I had in my mind, with this incident, and my calmness of heart, I know that indeed I had grown in my faith in Him and my God is so much greater than my problems. When I thought back the whole incident, and how can my heart be at peace, I am amazed, and I know Abba is with me and I am at right direction, I am made for missions and the reassurance of its not about my ability, but what it takes is just a willing heart, being a vessel used by Him. I really could not find any excuse not to serve Him.

 

- the end -

24th June 2016

Sitting by at coffee bean after meeting with pastor, again, thanking the Lord for His faithfulness.

Last week I had listened to couple of messages about financial planning, tithing and wealth. Capacity, increase of capacity by Pr Steven Teo and wealth and values of woman as mentioned in Bible, it was really eye opening and challenging. I am glad to go back to my home church before joining EPCC, meeting with friends and catching up, sharing testimonies, and yea, again...I really feel im really different, growing out of the shyness and low self esteem because I am highly favored, deeply bless and greatly loved. The sisters whom I had established my friendship with would always remain dear in my heart. I pray all of them will catch the flame and pursue Christ in such a great manner :)

Love them all

 

 

Ask, Seek, Knock 19 June 2016

Kasih Yesus indah oh indah...

So so much in my heart, been really some time I have not sat down and really spend time blogging. Most of the times are just time filler. Such a busy week is over and finally I could just sit at the comfort of my living room and spend some time thanking the Lord for His goodness.

Last week Ps Paul Ang was preaching in main church and i just felt I wanted to go and listen. Deep inside me asking the Lord to minister again. Came back from Sabah with experience of missing luggage yet able to rejoice in midst of all, and then sat at the message of Ps Paul Ang and again, Ask, Seek, Knock appear so clear to me again. Ask from Abba? Or human? Regardless whatever it is, I know God will lead me further. This life of mine, after having lost another beautiful friendship turned rship, once again, He had reassure me, that He will continue to lead me on...to a greater height.

Yesterday morning itself again I was hit by bad migraine, and again pushing myself beyond limit, and I had a good time cg. Did not plan to have lesson and mind was blank, but somehow when I stopped by KFC to vomit and have some food so tummy is not empty...somehow God impress few verses, and there I went, sharing my heart with them and I believe it is from Him. During the cg, I was the one handling games, prayer and lesson, and my headache just diminished abit and after the cg, felt it is coming back and I kept rebuking the pain. Despite the lethargy, after cg, I brought a student to pray and journey w her on certain issues. My mind was really not functioning in the flesh, but in spirit, pushing beyond the natural to supernatural...yea, His spirit led me to hit the right button and advice. By time reached home about 11plus,  I just felt like my head going to break, and just crying and crying out to God, that He will take this pain away forever...this morning I had some pain but kept confessing I am fine, and I just can't stand but just pop a painkiller and otw to church, I was all all right. So is my faith depend on God or medicine. I wish I don't have to take it but I just can't stand, anyway I was all good despite the pain, enjoyed the service, praying for the fathers and fellowship with one another. This journey had been challenging and yet fruitful, every little thing I see in the life of the students, how valuable are they in the eyes of Abba...pushes me to persevere on, impacting life...

Lord, help me finish this race, not just starting it...and end well, that's what matters.

Such joy to have this group of students from Ranau and Kota Marudu here with me in Penang.

Farewell for Adrianne, Eli and Fiona. Though my time with them is not much, praise God for the short time spent knowing and teaching her kids.

Praying for all the daddies. Wishing U dad is still here, but well, he's at a better place now :)

Farewell to Pip and Pru, another 2 students going back sarawak, pray their journey in EPCC had been really fruitful that when they are in the work world they are able to stand...

It was a good week nevertheless...praise the Lord Almighty 

Dont Settle for Restricted Future

Came across this long time message by pastor Rajan. Well, there is no such thing as outdated message as we have an updated God and nothing would be outdated.

Date : 9th August 2009

Speaker : Ps Rajan

Title : Don’t settle for restricted future             

Purpose : To break out from your limitation

Text : Daniel 11:32

Those who do wickedly against the covenant he shall corrupt with flattery; but the people who know their God shall be strong, and carry out great exploits

The scripture is for those who cannot be boxed in situation, limited to what they can accomplish

Phil 3:13-14 - Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, 14 I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.

Phil 4:13 - I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me

What can faith do through you?

1. Faith that changes seasons of your life

Insignificant life become significant, the thorny ground become flourish, all this is through prayer in faith

(Mark 9:23 - Jesus said to him, “If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes)

2. Faith that break out and enlarge borders

Luke 1:37 - For with God nothing will be impossible

Mark 10:27 - With men it is impossible, but not with God; for with God all things are possible.”

3. Faith demolish the negative thought patterns that seek to restrict our God given futures.

2 Cor 10:3-5 - For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war according to the flesh. 4 For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds, 5 casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ

4. Faith sees the invisible, believes the incredible and receives the impossible.

Promises in healings, salvation, promotion, etc

1 Cor 2:9 - Eye has not seen, nor ear heard,Nor have entered into the heart of man the things which God has prepared for those who love Him

Scriptures for reference :

Mark 11:24 - Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them

(Building in your spirit the Spirit of Excellence like of Daniel

John 20:29 - Jesus said to him, “Thomas, because you have seen Me, you have believed. Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed

John 11 :40 - Jesus said to her, “Did I not say to you that if you would believe you would see the glory of God?”

Eph 3:17 - that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love

Hebrew 11: 6 - But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.

Galation 1:10 - For do I now persuade men, or God? Or do I seek to please men? For if I still pleased men, I would not be a bondservant of Christ

Mark 11:22 – Have faith in God

When you pray in faith, you are downloading into your spirit & whatever you are praying shall comes through

1 John 5 – Whatever that is born of God overcomes the world

3 Things about practical faith

1. Faith must be exercise no matter how dim the light is

Pray the promise and proclaim the word

(Roman 12:3, Mark 9:23, Matt 4:1-11, 2 Chronicles 20, 1 Chronicles 4:9-10, Hab 3: 17-19)

2. Faith that is not tested is not a faith that worth and will not bring supernatural

Testing of faith bring treasures

(Rom 4:18-20 – Abraham gives God the glory for the testing)

John 11:40

3. Faith pleases God

(Heb 11:6, Psalm 37:4, Matt 6:8)