Tears of Joy - 9/7/16 12.30am

Im just reminded of the verse that those who sow in tears will reap in joy. As I am writing this, my tears just couldn't stop flowing...how do I ended up being a full time worker and now are impacting life of young people, how God had placed such burden for the people and how God had enable to me do greater things. 

I was a girl full of fears and concern. Despite all the inadequacy, God kept challenges me to rise up and take position, and I am slowly allowing God to really take control and hold that sterling of my life's wheel. It's really scary at times but all the more I am seeing Hos glory. 

I desire to drive the van and pick them for outings, bring them to places they have never been, and God gave me courage to drive the van although my heart is full of fears but God really took care of me and the ppl I fetched. Never in my life I could imagine driving a van of 15 ppl, and going to place like teluk bahang, never also it crosses my mind to access the places that I need to drive until that moment can and I got shock of myself that how come I never think of it before, anyway I drive with the confidence God has given me.

Van with loads of them

Then the camp took event with just less than 2 weeks planning and one time meeting with 3 students which I did not even know them or work with them before. But somehow we clicked and things got running. They had enjoyed themselves and the most joy is seeing all of them having a change of heart, to be open with one another and boldness in sharing after much encouragement.

This scene moved me deeply...because I literally see how this young boy shed his tears, if it's not God, who else? It's never in my agenda to have this session, but somehow just a simple get together to pray and God just moved. Lord, I am so so amazed by You.

So much fun we had, as well as throughout the trip I could feel the bonding between them. Despite the big hu ha about the other 3 boys and also one student's sudden death of her sis, God moved among these people, such encouragement to hear these testimony from them, it really brought me so so much joy. These time and money sown into their life is never in vain, God, thank You, thank You so so so much for Your love! 

Such joy

No Words to Describe my Feeling

4th July 2016 11pm.

Wanted so much to get my beauty sleep, but I have to insist to write down lest I forgot. The last 2 weeks have been really exciting. Here is the summary of it :

End May : Kairos Course - thinking of where the Lord actually place me, am I at the right place, being a missionary, full time worker, pastor, etc ? Where the Lord is leading me? Have a good chat with Malcolm and Linda and God confirmed what was in my heart - stay put in Penang and take care of Stradford students.

Early June : Lost of luggage in Sabah, despite that, God's assurance is so evident, that peace that surpassed understandings.

12th June - Pr Paul Ang's meeting - Mencari Wajah Tuhan, Ask of the Lord...ASK...and I began to ask more.

Leader's training 15th June 16 - Power of the Holy Spirit
1 John 2:20, 27 - The annointing which you received from Him abides in you, He will teaches you concerning ALL things. The way God teaches is through annointing.

21&23 June - Dr Pat Francis Conference. I didnt plan to go for this, yet God made a way for me to go as the class in EPCC is cancelled. It was so divine...I have been asking the Lord on financial planning, on how to get more money...how can i serve the kingdom of God when I dont have much to offer and now the students are poor, how can I be a blessing to them. In the morning before the meeting, God gave me Deut 8:18 - You shall remember the Lord Your God for it is He who gives you the power to get wealth and so that He may establish His covenant which he swore to your fathers as it is this today. She shared about how she asked God for funds for her poor students and how God pour it out to her...in amazing way, and the key is...Desire comes first, then He will give the ability.

End June : I got my confirmation and the money I can be used to meet needs for the SIC Students. At least I no longer need to ache much for providing to them. God miraculously provide RM 700 from WA funds. Then God challenged the RM 500 into building fund. Today I got back RM 500 that I had sown into the building fund. All my cries been heard and answered :)

On Healing....I was struggling quite abit due to faith, unbelieve and reality, but God today proof me wrong again, the lesson given by Raymond Mooi was so timely. When I spoke to my friend, I do not know where does the revelation came from. He just gave wisdom and I just talk as if I had prepared the script long time ago. Such a good good God I have

On Provision...suddenly, after so long, never know BRIM sudah masuk my account, without even me realising it.

Oh there are so so much to be thankful for....and I know there is more to come.