I had a very good 1 week plus break...and am grateful for the time to get away and spend with family and friend, most important, getting away from everything else and sat at the feet of Jesus and learn from Him during the camp, having solitude of my own and alot alot alot of sleep during camp too. I guess age is catching up....no longer like those younger days where I go camp, besides to learn of God, I also wanna make friend. This round, purely alot time alone, and connection is secondary, nevertheless I am thankful that I manage to sell all my notebooks and calendar when I was in KL :) I was abit scared tak laku, anyway, committing to Abba...and yea...I see His hand on it. I still have 80 calendars and notebooks to order...waiting for the new template to launch and I will be hardworking working on best design. Pray I will be able to sell all and the profit will all go to my students. Hmm....sometimes I wonder why do I do that....with all the hardworks, the profit isnt really significant...but I guess I am just doing my part...praying someone will receive the calendar as gift and felt led to sponsors some of my students. Hmm....I am super warden...can go to that extend in helping the kids...
Just wanna pen down highlight of my break...and what the Lord once again spoke into my heart....sometimes, people would wonder, is that for real...how do I hear from God...I guess everybody's experience is different...to me, all my life is about God....and surely it is very unnatural for me to have Godly thoughts, unless it is the Lord....
I had good time catching up with friend frm Penang and thank God she came, otherwise I would feel alone in the wedding. God really have a way of bringing events and people across my path :)
Each wedding would bring different emotion and feelings to me....as I sat in the church, I was reminded again....what the Lord had spoken when I visited the church the 1st time. The same friend who brought me to visit her church, now she is married in the same church. Write a book......revisiting the vision the Lord had laid in my heart, but I am not a discipline person, busyness of life really suck me in many times. It was also my first time witnessing a young man interpreting Pastor's mandarin message to English...oh Lord, that you raise more young man like him :)
I met many of my friend's friend from Kampar...3 of them are Christian....yet they appear the same as everybody else....sitting the same table with them....I just wish I had the opportunity to share, but doesn't have that golden opportunity coz all of them are so busy entertaining their phones and selfies. I do feel abit out of place...if I do not quit my job, I guess I would also be earning well and having quite a gala time of my life....but all those are history liao....anyway, thank God...I am feeling more secure in Christ....but my heart just feel abit sayang....perhaps I am abit unrealistic....but I feel each Christian wedding should bring out the gospel to the max...haha...but not every one think like me....anyway, am glad at least I got the opportunity to talk abit abit about my work and why do I give up job....and I pray those around the table with me...Lord, You will touch them...
On Sunday, I went visit SIB Skyline as my friend have to leave to airport at noon, so SIB Skyline service fits the schedule. I am contemplating to change to SIB Skyline...coz I felt kind of out of place frm Kingdomcity already....I wish I could join them as often as I can, and be connected and do life together, as the slogan says...but I am too far....and it's so hard to really know anyone when I'm like kitkat, now u see now u don't.
Many times really feel alone here....if not coz the assurance after assurance that Abba gave me...I guess I wont last....the message during the service is so apt...both for me and my friend. Pr Joshua Siaw was one sharing the Word...and he is also a young man....very encouraged to see many young man rising up this trip :) The message is nothing new...but the Lord dropped something very significant again in my heart...set apart for him. I always asked the Lord...why me....and why I always have to be one so zealous and care for ppl, but when I needed help, I can only cry out to Abba...but that Sunday...the Lord just impress upon my heart...that I am special, I am set apart for Him...."My life have always been set apart for Him, never look back again, serve Him wholeheartedly...not grumbling and thinking what if and what if again and again. This is the journey He has set apart for you for this season of life, so move on higher with Him...For He is the one who has set you apart for him". I have always said I wanna go back corporate....but I guess....what I needed to do....just never look back anymore and believing Abba have greater things for me.
I received msg frm WA group about East Malaysia, but did not read about it......after sending friend to airport....then only I read it.....and I see how God is putting all the puzzle together....why I did not read the msg earlier.....but after what the Lord had whisper....the WA message came as a confirmation of what the Lord has laid in my heart....so Celina....press on...
Moving Into 5780 and Beyond
Chuck Pierce in Kuching @October 29, 2019
God’s covenant word is built around harvest time as the feasts of the Lord indicated. He wants us to have harvest mentality. The last 70 years (since Israel became a state?) this 5780 ends to a beginning. Isaiah 32:1 says “See, a king will reign in righteousness and rulers will rule with justice” in a new era. In this island of Borneo, Brunei, Indonesia and Malaysia are entering together. Expect many changes. When God has a plan for the region, He will not stop until He accomplishes it in His perfect moment. God always look to His people seeking Him. Worship to breakthrough in a new way has come to Malaysia. In every key era God sends His new wind of the Spirit. When Jesus said, “And I tell you that you are Peter, and on this rock I will build my church, and the gates of Hades will not overcome it.” (Matthew 16:18), He means upon this rock of revelation, I will build my “ecclesia”. It means He is sending ambassadors into territories to transform them, to bind them and to loose them. It takes 70 years for the church to form. The church needs to assess her strengths and weaknesses and then look for how to correction their weaknesses in order to strengthen them.
A new wind is blowing in churches of East Malaysia bringing an overcoming anointing. After this I looked, and there before me was a door standing open in heaven. And the voice I had first heard speaking to me like a trumpet said, "Come up here, and I will show you what must take place after this." (Revelation 4:1) In this new era, the war intensifies. It’s the era of the Dragon and the Lion war. God’s people learn to manuevre the war structure and prevail on earth. East Malaysia is the key to the future, a voice of stability. Borneo island becomes a key to awakening Malaysia. Awakening anointing is on Borneo, a new mantle which represents Isaiah 35, a new highway, a new awakening and what planted will be blossomed. Kota Kinabalu (KK) is the miracle gate. In the next 8 months God will cause KK to blossom. In North East Malaysia I will open up miracle gate for the next decade. Sibu is the seed of decree. In the new season of decree and speaking forth, a new mantle has come to Sibu. When you open your mouth wide, you speak forth prophecy that has been withheld to come to pass. When miracles coming from KK, Sibu will speak forth and will expand your sphere of authority. Over the next 3 years Borneo Island will become the Maritime Center. Kuching represents the new authority, a new identity has come. In this change, a new awakening in the business world. Government will change. Isaiah 45:11, the Lord is saying, “Ask Me of things to come; will you command Me concerning My children and the work of My hands?” WE can command the works of God’s hand to work and then watch for miracles to happen. The Lord says, “My eyes are on this land but it’s up to you to command My hands to operate. Command every detail for it to be accomplished. I AM ready to perform My works in the next 3 years. Sibu shall decree the things and I shall start working. One command, one decree and I’ll start to move.”
Great change is coming to this island (Borneo). In the next 3 years, there will be conflict over my Rulership But I AM setting an order today, a kingdom people who has My saying for this land. Get ready a new anointing, a new Spirit is coming to My people. My Spirit will begin to manifest in churches, cities and many will say “The atmosphere of East Malaysia has changed.” In the new era My people voice will be heard. I AM raising Judah worshippers from KK to Kuching. Corporate worship incorporate a sound of heaven and the people will cause heaven and earth to align.
Several things to look at:
1. Ability to call wind to order.
2. Call back what’s been divided into a new dimension
3. Put together a whole new move of the Spirit in the land.
Time of deliverance. By April next year you will see great changes to this land. Worship with freedom. As the sound of freedom permeates the churches, you’re setting ambush against the enemy. Raising anew generation of worshippers to have stronger sound to prophesy to the 3 generations together. Judah begins to move.
Apostolic-Prophetic rule must be established to align the 5 fold gifts together. I am decreeing East Malaysia to align all the gifts of God together, as a model worldwide to see His church rising up with power. This is how we establish the apostolic prophetic rule:
1. Each person knows his/her sphere of authority and how you align and operate, not just church but church in all cultures of society.
2. Recognize what God wants to do in the past and bring it into the future.
People in East Malaysia will have the experience to allow the Spirit to come down in great authority in the midst of chaotic conflict. There will be change in Maritime ports of Asia. Indonesia and Malaysia can change. This new season God is going to break through, a new glory dimension is coming to East Malaysia. A new glory culture to be built, altar to be built in the marketplace and education and the church be renewed.
A window of heaven has been positioned and God is roaring down from that window and come alive in you. Your roar will be greater than the enemy. Prophet Eisha told king Joash to shoot through that window. Eisha then put his hands on Joash to give him unlimited strength to move forward. But Joash only shot 3 times. It made the old prophet mad because if Joash would shoot 7 times, he would have changed the entire region. Prophetic anointing has been placed in your hands. I am reoving the limits of your past season. I’m giving you new strength allowing you to target what you need to target, so don’t hold back. This is the time you go forward with new strength, new power, new anointing, new revelation. You’ll shoot and keep shooting until Borneo ……
I’m giving you authority for the next 3 years, don’t back down now. Move forward. My Spirit will lead you. First People of the land has the DNA of the land. They have the ability to sing and dance and to unlock the land. Judah first. Over the next 3 years you will see a new powerful demonstration of worship in Borneo. KK, Sibu, Kuching will affect Indonesia greatly. Worship of heaven and earth align will shake the island.
Normally I dont take prophecy seriously...but this came just as timely....not coz of prophecy....even it doesnt come to pass....to me, it is a confirmation of the same message that the Lord has dropped in my heart....
He is really good...I just cannot help thanking Him for all the goodness in my life...how He so love me....Thank You Abba.
"If you don't know God, you will misunderstand Him, if you misunderstand Him, you will misrepresent Him" - Pr Daniel Foo -
Monday, November 4, 2019
Saturday, October 19, 2019
19.10.19
19.10.19 I always love significant date....wanted to write down my thoughts before I get too busy and carried way with my works...
Pictures showed thousand words.....look at my girls.....I am a proud mama
Their kitchen
Their down...5 girls in a pondok
That is how it looks like outside of the small hut
How excited are my girls worshipping Abba
Sessi berkenalan
Games time
Sharing time
Annointed prayers.....my prayer warrior
My team of 11 - 10 roses and 1 thorn :P
Valerie shared on visions, how to be successful in life
Ana on moving on....the girl who hurt herself...now being restored and being used by Abba....
Prophetic Acts.
13 Oct 2019
My F3 girls was having their 1 week break frm sch due to SPM
phase 1 exam, but I do not allow them to go back coz I want them to help with
chores as F4 and F5 is having exam, and I want them to serve the F4 and F5 as
when they were having PT3, the bigger girls relieved them frm their duty. After
the eventful Christmas celebration in church, after our usual assembly, I had a
chat with all my F3 girls, planning some activities with them to keep them
occupy, discussing from outings to waterfall, hikings, Kundasang, in the end…agreed
to the painting of dorms….and then suddenly the conversation steered to the His
Sanctuary of Glory Hostel. 2 girls went with me when I visited the church and
hostel with my spiritual father. I wanted to show them how blessed they are
living in this luxury hostel where everything is provided for them…even free
internet and access to printing which they don’t get to enjoy previously. The 2
girls started to share with others…and in the end when we talked about visiting
HSOG, everyone was excited…I was too…in the beginning…but I suddenly felt abit
regret coz there is too much that is happening in JHS and now, I add another
task into my plate, organising the trip for them, but seeing their enthusiasm,
of course I wanted to compliment them, so I shared with them on what mission
trip is all about, things they wanna do there and also some warning that I do
not want to see them going in a group of 10 but coming back in 3 different groups
due to differences of opinion, etc. I asked them to prepare the program and
they all have to plan entire trip with minimal input frm me (partly coz I am
too busy to manage too). So they showed me the rough plan…and there they go….
10 girls and 1 boy, all F3, were launched out on 16 Oct to
minister to other students as they had received much here. They stayed a night
at hostel at HSOG, Bengkongan to minister to a group of 10 students who stay at
hostel run by a local pastor. 5 boys and 5 girls basically stay in a hut built by
pastor himself, and basically they are living in the means, probably below
means. It would be their personal journey with the Lord....leading themselves
to minister at His Sanctuary of Glory hostel...and I did not plan to be there
all the time as I am trusting God to lead them. However since on Wed night my
afternoon session girls needed to get present for Friday's Christmas gift
exchange, I need to bring them to KM on Wed night itself, so I thought to
myself…I might as well drop by HSOG to visit and see what's going on. That was
my first time ever driving along the kampung road with no lamp post to that
distance, but it is worth it. My girls surprised me w their msg, and
ministering. My girl was sharing about moving on.... Because God has greater
thing... And she did something very prophetic, she asked us to write on paper
our struggles and things holding us back, and they did a camp fire to burn the
paper, as a symbol of letting go and let God. It was so prophetic. I am sure
they do not know that is an prophetic act….but I am fully aware it is….where
they got this idea, if not because of the Holy SPirit giving them the
inspiration.
Earlier in the morning, despite the busyness….I was feeling
quite rejected and down because of a person I am still holding on, I wasn’t aware
of it or rather I am living in denial…It had been 4 years now, yet every year, I
still felt pained because of the short replied he had for me, leaving me into
abandonment again, and again. I know I have to let go, but somehow, I realised
it was just denial…every year on 16 Oct…I would send a birthday wish to him no
matter how busy I was…every now and then, I would still texted him to find that
it still hurt as ever, when all I got is just Noted, TQ, and Yes. And that
night itself….when my girl spoke about moving on…it was like a nail hitting
right at my heart….and I know that's it….I wept, and I asked the Lord to heal
my heart and help me to totally let go….and on that piece of paper it was my
request to Abba and I let it burned……and I came back…finally deleting all his
pics in my hp and fb…..Moving on….
If I would to skipped the service, I wouldn’t have seen how
my girls served the 10 boys and girls there, I wouldn’t have experienced
breakthrough, I wouldn’t have seen how powerful they could minister, and how
creative of them to use different approach to bring the message across. I guess
God already knew what is going to happen….that night basically is my night of
breakthrough. On my 2 girls sharing…WOW….I am seeing like a duplicate Celina addressing
the students. Indeed, I realised how important leaving a legacy to the kids…and
whatever I taught them, the way I presented it…it was like they are mimicking
me, yet, they are led by the Holy Spirit in their content. I am so so touched
by how God had changed them and mould them. They used to be gangs in the f3
group, but now I am seeing just 1 team….my heart really feel so so glad.
What led them or me to this point where I allow and trust
them to be on their own, without my supervision throughout the 2 days, I don’t
know, all I know I prayed very hard for them, and I trusted Abba will grant
them amazing experience. It is through mission trip that Abba always speaks to
my heart…with same faith I am believing Abba to do the same for them, and yes…He
did. I heard a lot of good testimonies, even frm the pastor himself….and all
this…none other than Christ's work in them. There isnt many plannings, just the
2 days after the discussion, and there they go…and I believe it is accumulation
of what they had been taught by various pastors and friends who came to
minister and share to my girls…it is really the work of the Holy Spirit in them…none
of my fleshly works. Tired? Yea….but it is worth it all to see their growth and
progress.
There are so much things to write about….but this will do…I
will always remember this significant date…16.10.19…a day where I finally let
go…..and I hope….I will not turn back again. All the praise and glory to Abba.
Thursday, October 3, 2019
Thank You Jesus 😭
Reassurance & reaffirmation. Lord how can I thank you enough for all You had brought me through and how You always given the best to me..
Friday, September 27, 2019
27.09.19 Abba Revives Us
Sunday, September 15, 2019
15 Sept 2019
Today is the day, where the Holy Spirit was poured in the hostel. For past weeks.....this revival meeting have been in my mind and prayer....and I was excited when I found out it has live stream...and for past 2 nights i had been showing it to the students and tonight, some of them received the baptism of the Holy Spirit and I believe many of them have been filled, but they are just shy to open their mouth. Some F1 girls...which i always thought too young to understand, tonight....Abba has filled her....oh what joy I have.
I pray that this will not be the end....I constantly have taught them, impart and after 9 months sowing into their life....now I am slowly letting loose and allow God to continue to work, not so much teachings already, but more of impartations and love, and encouragement.....I am really so thankful....how Abba brought me through....
Saturday morning I was going through books of Ezekiel....I had been running behind schedule for my bible reading....and I am only at Ezekiel...and Saturday night itself Pr Philip spoke about Ezekiel 37. Last Wednesday, I read Ezekiel 33 through to 43....and I shared with the kids here on Wed on Eze 33-34....and there are some questions I asked Abba on Ez 37, and He answered me through the sermon...How God knows how to reach me....this morning I was on Joel...and tonight message was in Acts 16 on the pouring out of Holy Spirit, as it is in book of Joel...is this mere coincident? Lord...is this the message for me personally or for the students? Tonight I just felt such a strong annointing of the Holy Spirit....and I just know that He has a consistent message for me...He will do great things through me....and whatever He has imparted to me...thats what I impart to the next generations.
Nothing is coincident in Him! I believe...He is leading the way...and Lord...help me to persevere...running the race without feeling weary....Abba help me not to be distracted with the things of this world....but let me just focus in You and You alone Abba....you know my deepest desire...and you grant you Daughter what she desired in Your perfect timing....help me to be patience meanwhile Abba....thank You for all that you had done in my life...I am eternally grateful....Love YOU ABBA
Your daughter,
Celina
I pray that this will not be the end....I constantly have taught them, impart and after 9 months sowing into their life....now I am slowly letting loose and allow God to continue to work, not so much teachings already, but more of impartations and love, and encouragement.....I am really so thankful....how Abba brought me through....
Saturday morning I was going through books of Ezekiel....I had been running behind schedule for my bible reading....and I am only at Ezekiel...and Saturday night itself Pr Philip spoke about Ezekiel 37. Last Wednesday, I read Ezekiel 33 through to 43....and I shared with the kids here on Wed on Eze 33-34....and there are some questions I asked Abba on Ez 37, and He answered me through the sermon...How God knows how to reach me....this morning I was on Joel...and tonight message was in Acts 16 on the pouring out of Holy Spirit, as it is in book of Joel...is this mere coincident? Lord...is this the message for me personally or for the students? Tonight I just felt such a strong annointing of the Holy Spirit....and I just know that He has a consistent message for me...He will do great things through me....and whatever He has imparted to me...thats what I impart to the next generations.
Nothing is coincident in Him! I believe...He is leading the way...and Lord...help me to persevere...running the race without feeling weary....Abba help me not to be distracted with the things of this world....but let me just focus in You and You alone Abba....you know my deepest desire...and you grant you Daughter what she desired in Your perfect timing....help me to be patience meanwhile Abba....thank You for all that you had done in my life...I am eternally grateful....Love YOU ABBA
Your daughter,
Celina
Sunday, September 1, 2019
1 Sept 2019
Today, I broke down again in church....not because I was sad...again, when I see my students rise, and so love Abba, my heart cant contain the joy...
I was quite upset due to what happened to me and the pastor, I just couldn't comprehend why a pastor could behave like that, and guess as much as I wanted to be strong, I couldn't. I felt so rejected...yet in front of student I got to appear calm...as if nothing happen inside of me. I just dont like people having sour face to me...i dont like to see sad face, what more and angry face....In my heart...i was contemplating just to go another church, better that way as she don't have to see me eye to eye...thank God for Godly counsel...I telan, for sake of bearing testimony to student, I did not behave according to my emotion. So I went to church this morning....and God just touched me....Thank God i sat right at the back, no one looking, haha....but yea...some girls do look behind and saw me...but this is not the first time...so it is OK...I am also human with feeling...
I was quite upset due to what happened to me and the pastor, I just couldn't comprehend why a pastor could behave like that, and guess as much as I wanted to be strong, I couldn't. I felt so rejected...yet in front of student I got to appear calm...as if nothing happen inside of me. I just dont like people having sour face to me...i dont like to see sad face, what more and angry face....In my heart...i was contemplating just to go another church, better that way as she don't have to see me eye to eye...thank God for Godly counsel...I telan, for sake of bearing testimony to student, I did not behave according to my emotion. So I went to church this morning....and God just touched me....Thank God i sat right at the back, no one looking, haha....but yea...some girls do look behind and saw me...but this is not the first time...so it is OK...I am also human with feeling...
A girl, full of potential, 2 months ago, she cut herself, she wrote letter which surprised me, someone I see so beautiful in the eyes of God, such a potential in her...but the thing she did hurt me, hurt her family and I am sure God is not pleased too...I prayed for her, I asked for prayer for her, I cried for her, spoke to her mom, and slowly she recovered, though she did not share openly what had happened, but I pray God sustain her...2 mths down the road...seeing her growing, esp after Teenstreet camp, and how she is opening up to me now, and she is just like a daughter to me, one that I love, of many others. There wont be absolute fairness in how I treat all of them because all are made differently, but I know there are few girls that I really pray they will rise up and do well coz they love Jesus...their life and character showed....and how I wish I would see them grow and serve the Lord....
I was so touched...and the Lord always never fail to remind me....they are your precious, love them....it is like a mandate I could never run away.....each smile on their face light my life up...and each tears they cried put me into cries too....Lord, that You will use them mightily...
There are many questions in my mind....on my future, my destiny...but Lord, please hold me up always...always always think and trust You no matter what....
Friday, August 30, 2019
Wednesday, August 21, 2019
Compiling Kids Testimony....
22 Aug 2019 12.00 am.
Ngam ngam midnght, but I gotta finish compiling kids testimony. I wish I could attach all the testimonies here. As I went through their testimony and finding pictures to put into their testimony, again...the sense of burden for them...all of them are so precious in the sight of the Lord that I have to press on and not weary...
Hmm...cant upload the file....am very sleepy...better rest and continue tomorrow
Ngam ngam midnght, but I gotta finish compiling kids testimony. I wish I could attach all the testimonies here. As I went through their testimony and finding pictures to put into their testimony, again...the sense of burden for them...all of them are so precious in the sight of the Lord that I have to press on and not weary...
Hmm...cant upload the file....am very sleepy...better rest and continue tomorrow
Wednesday, August 14, 2019
14 Aug 2019 SM Lok Yuk KK
As soon as I finish this I got to be in the sch again.am feeling quite lethargic, but each time I see the students all the tireness have to go. Yesterday slept well in sch but too late, been 4 days just sleeping on sleeping bag, now abit body aching.
Yesterday prayed for a girl, she was feeling very guilty fr having intimacy before marriage ,counselled her but what's next? I wanted to meet the bf but yea as what YC says he probably won't wanna see me, so let's see and test it out. Just now there are a number of of workshops to attend, I had decided to go to LGBTQ workshop but last last I masuk ke perhubungan Kristian pula....as if I dunno about this topic 😅 Anyway God have plan, perhaps it's God reminding me again that whatever state I am I just need to honour Him
Yesterday prayed for a girl, she was feeling very guilty fr having intimacy before marriage ,counselled her but what's next? I wanted to meet the bf but yea as what YC says he probably won't wanna see me, so let's see and test it out. Just now there are a number of of workshops to attend, I had decided to go to LGBTQ workshop but last last I masuk ke perhubungan Kristian pula....as if I dunno about this topic 😅 Anyway God have plan, perhaps it's God reminding me again that whatever state I am I just need to honour Him
Tuesday, August 6, 2019
I have fought a good fight I had finished the race
7 Aug 2019,10am
Sitting at mamak alone, trying to sort my schedules and tasks out before heading to buy grocery and got a sad sad news. My good friend, one who brought me to the Lord, her mom just passed away. Still remember how she held my hand and told me she's worry of soo ling, and her other children and grandchildren. She said she is ready to go but she will miss the family alot. Soo Ling must be very sad, gave up her job in UK to take care of her mom for many years, and now what is she going to do? Find a job back n move on with life? Sigh.... Life n death is in God's hand. Abba please embrace her in your loving arm...
Lai mun is also battling with final stage cancer, oftentimes received updates from her and would pray for her, but Abba, would You perform that miracle for her?
I don't know how will I be if I was in her shoes...but one thing, God will always remain faithful.
Help me Abba to also remain faithful to You....
Sitting at mamak alone, trying to sort my schedules and tasks out before heading to buy grocery and got a sad sad news. My good friend, one who brought me to the Lord, her mom just passed away. Still remember how she held my hand and told me she's worry of soo ling, and her other children and grandchildren. She said she is ready to go but she will miss the family alot. Soo Ling must be very sad, gave up her job in UK to take care of her mom for many years, and now what is she going to do? Find a job back n move on with life? Sigh.... Life n death is in God's hand. Abba please embrace her in your loving arm...
Lai mun is also battling with final stage cancer, oftentimes received updates from her and would pray for her, but Abba, would You perform that miracle for her?
I don't know how will I be if I was in her shoes...but one thing, God will always remain faithful.
Help me Abba to also remain faithful to You....
Tuesday, July 30, 2019
30 July 2019
Paul once said: “The Spirit ... helps our weaknesses; for we do not know how to pray as we should but ... intercedes for us ...” (Rom 8:26). Aren’t you glad that you have someone to represent you before God when you are too heart broken with painful circumstances? When you are too exhausted and you don’t know how to express your sorrow before Him? God has given His Spirit who dwells within you and will not only sees the depths of your wounded and crushed feelings but will translate those feelings and articulating them before God. He fully understands what you need. So, you need not fear if God will acknowledge the cries of your heart because the Spirit does the work of transforming your petitions into acceptable and pleasing sacrifices. Even when you think you are failing in your prayers, He ensures that you are heard. Most of all, He guarantees that all those trials you are facing are not in vain but your faith will be built up as you respond to Him in obedience.
He is always timely. Had a very good chat with mama Meng...what I needed most, someone who would hold my hand and pray.... God sent two, and I believe hearing my testimony of how God brought me through each and every trials and obstacles have in a way encourage a sister that I just know. And how both commit me in prayer, it meant so much to me...been crying alot recently....guess that's my way of releasing myself.... Always remember Psalm 56:8 that God collect my tears 🤣 thinking back, why do I get so upset with the kids? They really have improved a lot, why must I be so hard on myself that whenever they slack, I will deem myself as bad warden? One that never teach them well.... LORD help me.... Guess this morning God taught them a very valuable lesson. I'd mention to them, but now it happen right in front of all of them, all eyes have seen, while all of them are enjoying their breakfast, here came the warden to take her portion and found not a single plate left for warden. I responded well to them, with a loud voice, I said, oh no breakfast left for me...so sad, but its OK... And I could hear pin drop if there is, coz complete silence. Well, this is not the first time, and I'd told them nicely, what are ways to appreciate me and its not just say but with action... Today all of them faced the immediate reality of their selfishness... And I believe many of them felt bad, anyway... God allow things happen for reason... And after 1 hour I got a fried noodles frm them, but I'd oredi my own milo and biscuits and therefore rejected their offer coz I was full and I gotta eat brekkie fast coz I needed to take my supplement.
Not that I wanted them to serve me, but what a disappointment that they would keep food for their friends, but why never think of their warden who tirelessly take care of them? Am I not worth anything to them and being taken advantage? Hmm... Still a human which needs love lar... And appreciation... Anyway we had a good day outing just now, but came back dead tired... Time to rest and recuperate again....
He is always timely. Had a very good chat with mama Meng...what I needed most, someone who would hold my hand and pray.... God sent two, and I believe hearing my testimony of how God brought me through each and every trials and obstacles have in a way encourage a sister that I just know. And how both commit me in prayer, it meant so much to me...been crying alot recently....guess that's my way of releasing myself.... Always remember Psalm 56:8 that God collect my tears 🤣 thinking back, why do I get so upset with the kids? They really have improved a lot, why must I be so hard on myself that whenever they slack, I will deem myself as bad warden? One that never teach them well.... LORD help me.... Guess this morning God taught them a very valuable lesson. I'd mention to them, but now it happen right in front of all of them, all eyes have seen, while all of them are enjoying their breakfast, here came the warden to take her portion and found not a single plate left for warden. I responded well to them, with a loud voice, I said, oh no breakfast left for me...so sad, but its OK... And I could hear pin drop if there is, coz complete silence. Well, this is not the first time, and I'd told them nicely, what are ways to appreciate me and its not just say but with action... Today all of them faced the immediate reality of their selfishness... And I believe many of them felt bad, anyway... God allow things happen for reason... And after 1 hour I got a fried noodles frm them, but I'd oredi my own milo and biscuits and therefore rejected their offer coz I was full and I gotta eat brekkie fast coz I needed to take my supplement.
Not that I wanted them to serve me, but what a disappointment that they would keep food for their friends, but why never think of their warden who tirelessly take care of them? Am I not worth anything to them and being taken advantage? Hmm... Still a human which needs love lar... And appreciation... Anyway we had a good day outing just now, but came back dead tired... Time to rest and recuperate again....
Monday, July 22, 2019
23 July 2019
Just felt quite burden this morning, Lord help me....
Ystd went out with a girl, trying to help her in her struggles but I did not manage to get her to talk much, but i was sharing more of my experience, I showed her my pinky,sharing how
I tried to take my life previously and some of my life stories with her. Seeing her, it was as if I am seeing myself, rejected and abandonment spirit so strong, that everything I do I don't need to depend on people but all I need is just God. Seeing her it was as if I was looking back my life and I'm thankful how God ministered to me, how I never gave up seeking and asking Him to help me in my struggles.
My heart ache, even as I pray for her, could feel that helplessness in her and how she's crying for attention and love. Lord, grant me the strength to love and disciple the kids here, give me discernment if there are things I needed to know but the kids are hiding from me, most important is that their faith will be roooted in You Abba.
Life indeed is a journey, Lord lead me to where you want me to be, crucify every fleshy desire that's not of You Lord....
Ystd went out with a girl, trying to help her in her struggles but I did not manage to get her to talk much, but i was sharing more of my experience, I showed her my pinky,sharing how
I tried to take my life previously and some of my life stories with her. Seeing her, it was as if I am seeing myself, rejected and abandonment spirit so strong, that everything I do I don't need to depend on people but all I need is just God. Seeing her it was as if I was looking back my life and I'm thankful how God ministered to me, how I never gave up seeking and asking Him to help me in my struggles.
My heart ache, even as I pray for her, could feel that helplessness in her and how she's crying for attention and love. Lord, grant me the strength to love and disciple the kids here, give me discernment if there are things I needed to know but the kids are hiding from me, most important is that their faith will be roooted in You Abba.
Life indeed is a journey, Lord lead me to where you want me to be, crucify every fleshy desire that's not of You Lord....
Tuesday, July 9, 2019
Amazing Grace, indeed... How Faithful is He
After a busy day...cooking and tapau to school for 45 kids, on the way back to hostel, I got a surprise, really surprise beyond I can imagine...
Last Saturday a lady whom I knew from a youth camp called me up and told me that she has a Korea mission team wanting to visit student hostel and she thought of me. She asked me what I needed for the hostel, ie groceries, etc... But I told her we are bless here with our sponsor frm. KL. I got abit bolder to ask for education funds, if they are willing. I never expect that they would agree coz my F5 and F6 will only get their placement nx year and funds will be channel to the needy by then
They agree to sponsor 5 of my girls, and I'm so so glad that today, even the F4 kids who is potential will be helped too coz their giving is for 2 years.
I'd been praying about this education funds and seeing the needs for it for some time. How Abba granted this to me without me asking and kept knocking on it, indeed He is good. This yr I managed to collect quite a good amount too frm my personal friend as a start, and I was thinking to myself, I can't be asking my friends every year coz they will be scared of me, anyway I took one day a time, as long as this yr I'd helped the school leavers, nx year batch God will definitely provide again, and true enough... Oh I am so so so bless. He is such a great great God.
Today too, I didn't know I have to cook for so many ppl but Abba knew, of all days my friend decided to come this week. He really knows all my needs without fail, He failed not. Oh what a journey, of His love, His assurance, His Faithfulness in my life. Thank You Abba 😘😘😘😘
They agree to sponsor 5 of my girls, and I'm so so glad that today, even the F4 kids who is potential will be helped too coz their giving is for 2 years.
I'd been praying about this education funds and seeing the needs for it for some time. How Abba granted this to me without me asking and kept knocking on it, indeed He is good. This yr I managed to collect quite a good amount too frm my personal friend as a start, and I was thinking to myself, I can't be asking my friends every year coz they will be scared of me, anyway I took one day a time, as long as this yr I'd helped the school leavers, nx year batch God will definitely provide again, and true enough... Oh I am so so so bless. He is such a great great God.
Today too, I didn't know I have to cook for so many ppl but Abba knew, of all days my friend decided to come this week. He really knows all my needs without fail, He failed not. Oh what a journey, of His love, His assurance, His Faithfulness in my life. Thank You Abba 😘😘😘😘
Monday, July 8, 2019
Pressing on....
NEW STRENGTH FOR TODAY
Day:Tuesday Date:09.07.2019
Text: Isaiah 43:18 NKJV
Do not remember the former things, Nor consider the things of old.
Life has no reverse or pause button. it is vital not to look back but look forward.
Prayer: Lord, teach me to number my days and live with Your future in mind for there is no reverse or pause button in life.
●Psalms 144:4 NKJV
Man is like a breath; His days are like a passing shadow.
Life is too short to waste on things that don't matter. So, don’t dwell on yesterday’s.
Let God bring lasting change to you for His glory by looking forward. Do not take life for granted.
●Psalms 90:12 NKJV
So teach us to number our days, That we may gain a heart of wisdom.
Time is not renewable. You can’t replenish it. Redeem time by prioritizing and touching as many people as you can.
🔴THOUGHT FOR THE DAY:
Today is the youngest you will ever be and the oldest you have ever been.
Sunday, July 7, 2019
8.7.2019 - Grateful heart
Weekend usually should be the most relax day but for me it's normally paling busy tome of the week where I'll try to do activities with them, help whoever needed help in their studies, marketing etc.
Ystd after the Korean team left, I forced myself to have family meeting w the girls and make all necessary announcement and then slept at 6plus evening till 5am. Should have more than enough sleep but when I woke up my head was so painful 😭 oh Lord, I just wish that this thorn in flesh be removed. Its now became a monthly affairs that my migraine hit me
Woke up still and had my prayer with the girls as usual and I thought just went back to sleep, thank God I din
I choose to talk with the girls, make them do some chores and I realised, my head not that pain anymore. Praise God, I realised sometimes yea, the happy pills are time I spend w the girls and heart that's joyful indeed a great medicine. Now I'm back to normal, but needed to slow down abit
Thank God for a helper later in evening, my friend coming to stay w me a week, and just at a very right timing where my projek masak utk 45 kids is happening again tomorrow 🤣🤣🤣
Just now I went thru my iPhone WhatsApp msg, and I'm so glad to see kids msg to her dad, one that she resented, because of many family issue. I counselled and pray 4 reconciliation, visitors came and share also. On forgiveness and love and I believe she had open up her heart to her dad again, at least now she can say thank you pak for the barang her dad bring to her... I'm forever grateful for the work of the Holy Spirit in this place, Daddy, please help me to overcome my health challenge... Nothing is too great that You cannot do it, give me strength to be able to give thanks despite my situation Lord 😘
Help me to always submit to You and be humble to learn frm you continously. I'm looking forward to trip to Miri... Planned so many things but all tak jadi, and believing that trip to Miri would be great as its not intended but You made it possible. Tq Abba
Love you Jesus, my lover of my soul, my best friend and my helper in times of need.
- #eternallygrateful#
Tuesday, June 25, 2019
Thank You Abba for solid friendship
Just went out 4 brekkie 4 my F6 classmate
It was an unplanned thingy and she is willing to come all da way frm serdang to meet me, so paiseh for me to reject. Had good time with her
26 June 2019, 9.30 am
Hmm....the above message was truncated since 5 June 19 :) Busyness in life...takes all of me...that I always have to tell myself to pace down and rest...
Yesterday was really an overwhelming day...woke up 5am...have my time alone, then prayer with all the girls...and then start preparing to cook for my girls. That was my first time ever in life cooking for 46 students and I kind of dread it coz it was their mistake not telling me that all have to go school at the same time, leaving no one to prepare lunch for them. I can in a form of strike, dont do anything, let them come back hungry and cook their own meal...but guess that is not how I am wired....full of love and compassion....as usual...though mouth cakap tak mau...I will still do it...so prepare all ingredients that I can...and then I felt I should take a nap...so went into room and rest, in less than 15 mins...warden next door call and said someone wanna see me....so up I go...and driver passed dress for my girls...which he suppose to send to sch but he sent it to hostel...and knowing my girls been waiting for the dress for their hari guru n raya cina, raya melayu....so...drove myself to their sch and pass them their dress...came back..it was already 9 plus....and there I am....start to cut my vege and preparing to cook....finished cooking, thought now I can take rest...warden wife call me...to go lunch with her....so...again....i went out...haha.....thats the consequences of not being able to say no...but its ok...coz I always enjoyed the fellowship with her and pray she will rise to the occassion to be a good warden's wife and support much as she can ...
Came back...was abit upset...hostel is quite messy, and I had a good lecture to the girls...and asked them to do their duty....then, slowly began to find out many are having boyfriends in school...and during the 4 days I was away, some girls broke rules, etc...was abit disappointed...its like one after another and I was dead tired...but one after another, I called into office for query and then even more disappointment to find out more...thats why I never wanted to probe the kids here unless they tell me truth, but coz I was away for many days, just wanna find out how they are doing here without me around...manatau...backfire...so many things I find out...perhaps it is a sign that Abba dont want me to be over confident over my girls. I am kind of proud of them...to me they are the best girls I ever had...so far things been fine...they are obedient and I can see many positive improvement...but...yea...young people...thats the challenges they face...yesterday, really so so tired...from 4pm to 10pm...counselling more than 10 girls...so so draining...
This morning woke up...the circle continue...but I was more calm...and God spoke sth into my heart....Lord...thank you for this revelation. Help me to do the best I can....seal them in your precious blood that no scheme of the enemy will be able to influence them...
Personally for me....really have grown so much....sometimes...I am amazed by my own calmness and not affected much by emotions anymore...still abit...but it takes lesser time to overcome it....and I am so thankful for Abba to send Pr Jeremiah last week to minister here...how He knows just the right timing. Also...how God had provided for my car break repair even before it broke down....God is really good. The Melaka team that came, a sister gave me offering of RM 500, and she emphasis it is for me....probably she knew thru pastor that the last time I receive the offering I actually given it away to the male warden & wife and a volunteer...like this time, somehow He know that I am going to need this money and she emphasis the money for me....so I kept that for myself....and wow....less than 1 week...haha...I needed RM 520 for the repair of car...and I am thankful He had preserved me....coz I could have lose control of car if it broke down totally while I was driving....I know for sure...the angels is taking care of me....
Many people are amazed at my boldness to step out and serve....but to me, anyone can be as me...all they needed is that first step and the rest...guarantee Abba will take care, and no one would be able to relate to my experience, except myself...the journey is great....but sometimes can be very lonely...coz no one can identify with me...many ppl said...oh Celina you are doing great job...my standard answer it is all Him and do please pray for me and my ministry here....but I wonder how many really take that seriously and carry the mantle of prayer for me....not to judge....but it is normal, even myself...sometimes I said I pray for you...but do I really take time to feel how they feel...so many are guilty of that....I thank God for Pr Goh and my papa....without them, I guess I wont be that strong....
Lord...continue to fan that zeal in my heart, in times of weariness...let me always lean back to You and never give up...Thank you Abba....for the grace and mercy you bestow into my life...i am forever grateful to you...Help my family to grow as well, esp my sis, in her family...bind them as a family and never allow enemy to sow seed of unforgiveness, for my koko and family...for their salvation...Abba...it has been such a long years...dont let me wait so long Abba.....let them have that special encounter with you...and for mommy...take care of her health and safety as she stay alone in the house...help me not to entertain the negative thoughts that I always take care of other people but neglect my own family....Help me Lord to rise above all situation and lead me to be where You want me to be Abba....TQ Jesus....the lover of my soul, my best friend, my all in all......
26 June 2019, 9.30 am
Hmm....the above message was truncated since 5 June 19 :) Busyness in life...takes all of me...that I always have to tell myself to pace down and rest...
Yesterday was really an overwhelming day...woke up 5am...have my time alone, then prayer with all the girls...and then start preparing to cook for my girls. That was my first time ever in life cooking for 46 students and I kind of dread it coz it was their mistake not telling me that all have to go school at the same time, leaving no one to prepare lunch for them. I can in a form of strike, dont do anything, let them come back hungry and cook their own meal...but guess that is not how I am wired....full of love and compassion....as usual...though mouth cakap tak mau...I will still do it...so prepare all ingredients that I can...and then I felt I should take a nap...so went into room and rest, in less than 15 mins...warden next door call and said someone wanna see me....so up I go...and driver passed dress for my girls...which he suppose to send to sch but he sent it to hostel...and knowing my girls been waiting for the dress for their hari guru n raya cina, raya melayu....so...drove myself to their sch and pass them their dress...came back..it was already 9 plus....and there I am....start to cut my vege and preparing to cook....finished cooking, thought now I can take rest...warden wife call me...to go lunch with her....so...again....i went out...haha.....thats the consequences of not being able to say no...but its ok...coz I always enjoyed the fellowship with her and pray she will rise to the occassion to be a good warden's wife and support much as she can ...
Came back...was abit upset...hostel is quite messy, and I had a good lecture to the girls...and asked them to do their duty....then, slowly began to find out many are having boyfriends in school...and during the 4 days I was away, some girls broke rules, etc...was abit disappointed...its like one after another and I was dead tired...but one after another, I called into office for query and then even more disappointment to find out more...thats why I never wanted to probe the kids here unless they tell me truth, but coz I was away for many days, just wanna find out how they are doing here without me around...manatau...backfire...so many things I find out...perhaps it is a sign that Abba dont want me to be over confident over my girls. I am kind of proud of them...to me they are the best girls I ever had...so far things been fine...they are obedient and I can see many positive improvement...but...yea...young people...thats the challenges they face...yesterday, really so so tired...from 4pm to 10pm...counselling more than 10 girls...so so draining...
This morning woke up...the circle continue...but I was more calm...and God spoke sth into my heart....Lord...thank you for this revelation. Help me to do the best I can....seal them in your precious blood that no scheme of the enemy will be able to influence them...
Personally for me....really have grown so much....sometimes...I am amazed by my own calmness and not affected much by emotions anymore...still abit...but it takes lesser time to overcome it....and I am so thankful for Abba to send Pr Jeremiah last week to minister here...how He knows just the right timing. Also...how God had provided for my car break repair even before it broke down....God is really good. The Melaka team that came, a sister gave me offering of RM 500, and she emphasis it is for me....probably she knew thru pastor that the last time I receive the offering I actually given it away to the male warden & wife and a volunteer...like this time, somehow He know that I am going to need this money and she emphasis the money for me....so I kept that for myself....and wow....less than 1 week...haha...I needed RM 520 for the repair of car...and I am thankful He had preserved me....coz I could have lose control of car if it broke down totally while I was driving....I know for sure...the angels is taking care of me....
Many people are amazed at my boldness to step out and serve....but to me, anyone can be as me...all they needed is that first step and the rest...guarantee Abba will take care, and no one would be able to relate to my experience, except myself...the journey is great....but sometimes can be very lonely...coz no one can identify with me...many ppl said...oh Celina you are doing great job...my standard answer it is all Him and do please pray for me and my ministry here....but I wonder how many really take that seriously and carry the mantle of prayer for me....not to judge....but it is normal, even myself...sometimes I said I pray for you...but do I really take time to feel how they feel...so many are guilty of that....I thank God for Pr Goh and my papa....without them, I guess I wont be that strong....
Lord...continue to fan that zeal in my heart, in times of weariness...let me always lean back to You and never give up...Thank you Abba....for the grace and mercy you bestow into my life...i am forever grateful to you...Help my family to grow as well, esp my sis, in her family...bind them as a family and never allow enemy to sow seed of unforgiveness, for my koko and family...for their salvation...Abba...it has been such a long years...dont let me wait so long Abba.....let them have that special encounter with you...and for mommy...take care of her health and safety as she stay alone in the house...help me not to entertain the negative thoughts that I always take care of other people but neglect my own family....Help me Lord to rise above all situation and lead me to be where You want me to be Abba....TQ Jesus....the lover of my soul, my best friend, my all in all......
Friday, June 14, 2019
Reminder of that First Call....Oct 2013
It's Father's day this weekend, while many are celebrating, I am as well, celebrating God as my Abba, giving thanks to Him for bringing me a spiritual father despite those old days when I asked him to be my mentor and he told me he is not suitable as he is a man, but throughout these years, our relation just grew, with him being a catalyst for me to enter into full time ministry. These 3 years, He had given me a lady pastor whom I barely know to walk me through toughest time, and a spiritual dad whom I can look up too, what more can I ask?
My heart is so thankful, despite my health issue, despite all the negatives setback frm family, I had fought it all through and had a shift of mind, and I know the Lord is stretching me much, and I know I had progressed well, all because of His power that is at work in my life.... Lord, how thankful I am to You... My lover, my comforter, my all in all...my heart is full...
I still miss my papa, but I know he has a special place with Abba in heaven... I am thankful, He has taken good care of my mama that's alone at home in Penang...one thing I am still waiting Abba.... The day my koko and family will know You.... Lord, you have Your way in his family... Intervene Abba....
Life here in hostel is crazily hectic, I have so much things I wanna accomplish... I don't know how long this season going to be, but I know He has all the answer, I just need yo walk step by step guided in His love.
I came across my own testimony in my archives, I just wanna put it down, it was there in the serenity of Cambodia He spoke to me.... And I just wanna hold it dear in my life....
My heart is so thankful, despite my health issue, despite all the negatives setback frm family, I had fought it all through and had a shift of mind, and I know the Lord is stretching me much, and I know I had progressed well, all because of His power that is at work in my life.... Lord, how thankful I am to You... My lover, my comforter, my all in all...my heart is full...
I still miss my papa, but I know he has a special place with Abba in heaven... I am thankful, He has taken good care of my mama that's alone at home in Penang...one thing I am still waiting Abba.... The day my koko and family will know You.... Lord, you have Your way in his family... Intervene Abba....
Life here in hostel is crazily hectic, I have so much things I wanna accomplish... I don't know how long this season going to be, but I know He has all the answer, I just need yo walk step by step guided in His love.
I came across my own testimony in my archives, I just wanna put it down, it was there in the serenity of Cambodia He spoke to me.... And I just wanna hold it dear in my life....
Led by His Spirit
Mission Trip to Cambodia 30th Oct – 4th
Nov 2013.
I have been to mission trip few
times in the past, normally just helping out here and there, but did not take
any heavy responsibility. For this trip, it's no difference, I thought that
I'll just go and help whatever I can, did not prepare much for this mission
till the last week before we went, one sister have to pull out from the trip
due to health issue, and me and another sister were put in charge of the
children ministry. Then I started to do my best to prepare whatever I could,
not knowing much about the condition at each villages. I was pretty much lack
of sleep as every night I would be thinking and preparing for the trip as I'm
the person who want things to be exactly as I planned.
The first day where I am supposed to
teach, I am pretty nervous, when I reached the village, my mind went blank
seeing so many children and we were at open field, whatever I prepared doesn't
seems to be of much use, I whisper a prayer “God...it has to be You”...and
whatever that comes to my mind, I just do it, and I'm really amaze by how His
Spirit guides me and I'm having lots fun with the children. Subsequently, the
next 2 session, I asked another sis to teach, and for the last day, I wanted
her to lead too. I felt inadequate and I felt she did a better job than me, but
somehow God reminded me of things He spoken to me before I came for the mission
trip "rise up and take position". I obeyed and commit to Him for my
last session. When I was at Baptist Church for the Sunday School, I was truly
touched again that how the Holy Spirit guides and lead me. I can really feel
his Spirit is leading me and there is so much joy in the heart, sing, play
games and telling them about love of Jesus.
After Sunday School, I went for the
Agape Church Sunday Service, during worship, I just couldn't contain my tears,
He just minister deep in my heart that He is the God that will leads me, as
long as I surrender. He reminded me again of what He has spoken to me when I
was in Israel. Jesus asked Peter, "Do you love me" for 3 times, and
He commanded Peter to feed His lamb. I have been longing to reach out, but
along the way, the passion died off as I feel I can’t do much as I don’t have
much gift to offer.
In the
evening, at Yang Meng ministry, during worship, I saw a vision of axe and iron
and the word chisel came to my mind. I felt that God speaking to me that He is
sharpening me, an axe which is rubbed against iron, sharpened it to chop woods,
as long as I surrender this life to Him, He is going to use me. That was the
impression I have. I tried to brush it off, thinking it is my emotions stirred
for the moment. Then Sis Yang Meng gave
word of knowledge that some of us are called into mission, my heart pumped very
fast, I was asking the Lord…it wouldn’t be me right? After the service,
suddenly I look at the wall, and there is this drawing of axe, and I just
tremble.
I had so
much to digest in this mission trip, in one way of another, I felt like a
puzzle which slowly form the picture of my life. I came without any
expectation, but God have His way. I knew that mission have always been the
desires of my heart, but am I called for that? Is it possible? Well, at least
now I have really caught the vision and I know that He will prepare me, I just
need to really surrender my all to Him and let Him take over.
Throughout
the 8 days in Cambodia, I had the opportunity to hear from servants of God who
is serving faithfully in Cambodia. How my heart aches to hear some of their
struggles, yet impressed by how our God that faithfully provides. I extended 2
days to stay with a Malaysian pastor who gave herself to serve in Cambodia for
the past 8 years. My reason is purely to catch up, but never did I know that
God is really doing a surgery in my heart. With so much time on my own and with
no internet connection, I am connected to the Lord most of the times J I just
felt He is healing me and I began to understand why certain events took place
in my life. There is this assurance that nothing is in vain. Whatever brokenness
and pain I had been through, it will be used for His glory. I really came back
feeling so refreshed.
There are
so much take home message from the mission trip and so much more to share. The
harvest is plentiful, but workers are few. I pray that more people would
respond to His call into the harvest field.
In Him,
Celina Moy
梅谨君
Thursday, May 16, 2019
Inner Peace - first blog for 2019
2015 to 2016, then 2017, then now 2019....God must have purpose for me to revisit back my blog, to encourage myself and to look back at His faithfulness in my life...
Sitting at clinic now, my heart goes for the people here. I realise yea, basically it is human nature, one that have bias and preconception for the treatment they give to one another. If I wasn't here with the student, will the doctor really have a thorough check for her? And seeing Dr playing FB while outside there are numbers of patients....oh Lord, our world have become so different, human no longer work their best to satisfy their own conscience and fulfillment but work is merely a means to get paycheck at the end of the day.
Can we change this system
What can I do about it? If I want, I can be a good complainer, write to kementerian, bla bla bla, but would it change the system here... Only pray God will move the heart of politician.
Almost 2 hours at clinic, hmm, later will be travelling to Ranau, really looking forward for the wedding. My leader in penang getting married...am glad, after 2 years in penang, they had grown and now another journey in life ...
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