4 August 2015

Back to KK again after good catch up with friends at Sibu and miri. All alone at mission house again, this time with less activity and meeting up friends coz I really needed so much rest from the trip. Am glad to be back at the solitude with Jesus. Will be travelling to Tenom tomorrow and day after back to Kapulu, pray after a good break I'll be back with more insights and am able to relate more to the villagers. Not sure where do I go from here, but guess I just needed to trust God and keep going. Felt that God is really breaking me and moulding me and a lot of obstacles would come along the way when I'm all out to serve Him. Last Sunday, had good walk with dogs, yea I guess the fear is all a matter of mental block...quite fun though walking with the dog and also talk to him, although he don't understand...but at least this cute little dog name Moo Moo kept me company, I guess I would agree that dog can be man's best friend...no wonder some of my friends could really sleep with the dog...haha...

Last week before leaving to Sibu I attended SIB and I kept reminding myself to get NECF booklet for me to begin another 40 days fast for nation. But unfortunately I forgot. Ystd I joined one of my friend in cg and there she go, asking who don't have the book yet, God really know what's best for me...

And we had such significant act in the cg, feeling quite funny as first time I'm there and there is ppl washing my feet and I'm washing ppl feet also. That's how our Lord love us, and we ought to also do the same, but often times we failed...spirit is willing but flesh is weak. The leader shared about revival in Miri, how one ordinary teacher who went and give a short 1 hour sharing impacted the whole school...and it really encourage me to put down my fear and the thoughts of what I can do there but to continue to pray and be faithful in the little act in the village. Lord, ultimately it is You and You alone....

In Miri at my friend house, her mom also kept worrying of me, and when I talked to her my heart just cried...she felt for me of what I'm doing at village and kept telling me family and health is the most important thing in life, to certain extend yes, but what about Gods calling? I could really feel moms heartbeat through her...my friend is bless to have a mom like her that cares so much, pray that she will always be healthy...thank God for all the people I meet along the way, and esp for Gina that willing to accompany me all the way from KL to Sibu, Bintulu and Miri....I pray that there'll be a lot take home message too from the Lord...

It's raining now...sitting here at kopitiam and blog after some time...waiting for the rain to stop and I'll walk back home and rest. Not sure how much this lunch cost...things here really super pricy...compared with Sarawak, Sabah is more pricy..

Talked to mom yesterday too, praise God that I could feel she is opening to the idea of me serving at Sabah...pray that God will direct my path further...

With God all things are possible...