27 Aug 2015 450pm

Line here seems to be very bad that it took quite some time to load the blog. Suppose to go another village Tues but somehow I waited but no one picked me up, so am still waiting, tomorrow will follow people from Yayasan Sabah down, hopefully they know the way there...and they can graciously help me carry all my bArang barang...really amazing how God bring other ppl to fetch me at times, the Ketua Sidang have transport, but I also don't know why he doesn't offer to drop me, I guess he is following the principle of whichever village im suppose to go to, they should come and pick me. Well despite the discussion during Kalimaran, still things not work as it is...Ahuron doesn't have reception of any telco nor wifi, so the only way to contact is at kemabong, when have line, but even with that, looking at my experience guess the people here memang flexible and its culture is just wait. Apparently there is no vehicle to bring me down, thank God Rumba managed to get them and told me their vehicle spoil, at least today I did not repack and unpack again and I just take today easily, reading alot of scriptures and pray. 

Tomorrow hopefully I'll be safe and sound there..these 2 days been raining, pray tomorrow weather would be good and I can travel without much hassle there, Lord, I know everything is within Your control, all I need to do is just to trust! And Lord make way also for me to meet the impian Sabah people. Am not very politically inclined but if the political party can help, why not? I even thought of joining them in the next project...well, have a lot in mind, not sure which is of the Lord, well, He will make it clear for me, I am finding quite hard to rest, despite am at village. Time passed very fast somehow, then now this week when I stopped teaching, suddenly I felt the time stopped and I just don't know what to do...and I'm so malu that I can say I dunno what to do when I could actually have a lot a lot time to pray and study the scripture. 

I came across Susan Tang book, she was saying our prayer time should be more than ministry time, otherwise it's not healthy and dangerous, I guess it's really true, nothing beats the quality of spending time with God, despite the busyness of life.

This few weeks of witness few things happening in the village. I think it's election time...haha, slowly govt aid is coming in, the jabatan tanah Dan ukur came to divide land status to villagers, then sabah tourism board distributing bags, clothes and stationery, the yayasan sabah came to teach crafts, yayasan Islam came and gave uniform and sch shoes...and ystd got cari gali ppl came, so called building well that can provide water to drink...weird...but that's just superficial aide, what does the villager really need? Good education and love...whereby these ppl are being appreciated as 'people' and not treated as outcast, hardcore poor and don't have the good mentality...and respect as well. People come and go, taking pictures here and there and leave...but is the ppl here being helped? Hmm...long term thingy, who can and able to endure, I can't say myself too...am thinking if I am multi millionaire, I can do much more,

Combination of my heart and willingness with the plenty of money that I had, I would just purchase a 4wheel for the villagers use, at least they can get down to town easily for their education, medical and also trade...but I don't have the money to buy, and I also don't dare to drive...so am still praying...secular, earn money...or trusting Him and serve and live in the means...only He knows and He will lead me step by step....I am learning a lot, most important to have steady heart, still learning...but definitely this 4 mths in sabah is not wasted, I know He have His purpose...and I just need to be thankful always and forever....He is good !!!