Last class with advance lesson...and managed to finish the whole book, really can't do it without the Lord...sang the song betapa hati ku Tuhan, berterima kasih Yesus...my tears just wanna flow and I just tahan it. How God had led me this far, all the bondings established in this village, how I'm going to miss this fellowship...Lord You have taught me many things here, let it be placed at such a secret place in my heart, whenever I wanna give up, you remind me of how you have led me here, how amazing and miraculously You had provided for me...im so so thankful for everything!!!!
His few days been really emotional, each day I cried before the Lord, asking for His leading. I'm really desperade to hear from Him, but I guess He has spoken, that my life belongs to Him and I'm just going to serve Him. No more secular work...give my life to Him, that's what I received throughout this whole week, at the same time also, it's not individual, I know God will send someone along with me, I'm convinced that I can't go on in my own anymore, since the time
I went back pg, till now, the verse at Luke 10 kept coming to me : “After this the Lord appointed seventy-two others and sent them two by two ahead of him to every town and place where he was about to go.”
Luke 10:1 NIV
At the Sibu seminar, the sermon that i listened, and reading of the books, it's just like confirmation after confirmation, so I will not fret...because I know God is going to send people along my way to go with me.
Lord, let my heart be steadfast and immovable...greater things are yet to come, greater things are yet to be accomplished in Celina life. I must rise above and beyond because Christ had paid a very expensive price for me...how can I criticize the creation of God?
Life is really so interesting, or rather I say human is very interesting, amazed at how God can love each of us, the fallen one to the point of sacrificing His Son for us.
Won't have line soon, it would be another new season for me...new beginning...Lord, have Your way in me, not my own way but Your way!
Sigh, feel sad, my food kena curi..I just realized now, I think it could be last week someone came in coz I forgot to close the back door...my whole tupperware of ikan bilis and noodles gone. Initially I can't find the noodles, so I tot since I left door open, mayb dog came and grab it if I did not store properly and it's probably my fault...after that when think deep, it was last Friday, when I cook mee, I remember still got leftover, then after that I went down for Kalimaran....then Monday when I came back I can't find it...I also forgotten when I left the door open...haiz...it's not about the food that im sad about, it's the heart of villagers...where's the simplicity and sincerelity of heart? I just can't believe village people could do such thing :( It's okla, God knows and He will justify...just pray the Lord will convict
4 more days to ahuron, to place totally no line :( God help me to adjust and help me not to worry of health and food...abit sakit hati coz I can actually survive on ikan bilis alone for soup, rice, vege and porridge, now it's gone, perhaps the Lord is teaching me again to trust Him fully :(
Help me Lord to stay immovable!
21 Aug 2015
Today I am telling the Lord, my ikan bilis no more, I got not calcium liao, haha, someone gave me 3 fishes.
Really amazing God. It's so important to spend time with God, whenever I don't, things ain't right, always always have to put Him first, God help me to always always focus my eyes on You. Quite look forward to Ahuron, another new season, after each challenges, there are new beginning..after rain there are always sunshine...better still rainbows :)
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