12 Aug 2015

Ystd I prayed for one of the villager who is sick, they told me she was from SIB last time, now terlantar at hospital...I told them whether SIB or RC or Islam, we should also pray when hear someone is sick...so we did pray, this morning I wanna continue to pray w them and they said she oredi passed away, my heart was challenged again....God, how come when I pray, nothing happen one? Few times I prayed for those who is sick but they don't really got better? And my own wrist is also painful for months, and now I is swollen already 😢, feeling sad, but I still have to hang on to Him! Is it that I don't have the healing annointing? Or there are many doubts in me? Have I actually dealt with my dad's disease and trust God still is healer? I guess it has been dealt with, and I know God is still in control, just sometimes situation just discourage you. 

Am I doing things in my own strength ka? What can I improve? Well, life really have many ups and downs, but always have to keep looking to the cross. I guess the hardest things for me is to surrender and release all to Him! Easy to say but when reality hit, hard to do it...learning and continue to learn, as long as I don't and won't give up, I know in the end God will vindicate me...help me Father to continue to persevere on!!!!