10th June 2015

Prayed for the family of the victim of KK climb yesterday and shared with them about life in Christ..how fragile life is and we have to keep praying for the nation. At times I wonder whether they understand me..nevertheless I pray Holy Spirit will quicken their heart. I can only do this much while I'm here coz I don't think I'm going to be here for rest of my life..

Recalled back my climb a year ago...still could remember so well how the guide held my hand and walk with me, encourage me, trying to make me mad so I have more energy to climb...the joke he make...and the kampung Adidas that I have always been wearing, and the socks that I bought specially for the climb, it really reminds me so much of the climb a year ago, and if I was there now, how would the feeling be 😥 

God comfort those who mourn. Really felt for those victim family, something that is fun and adventerous have turned to be disaster 😪😪

This 2 days I wasn't feeling well, but have not stop my teaching. At times just feel so strengthless, but He have made me strong. Been so long haven't have migraine and fever, yesterday it all came together. I guess probably my heart is looking forward to go back to KK and Penang, so battery almost low already. I wanna have my own time together, but kids kept coming to me, esp when I showed them the UNO card, every now and then when they are bored, my place is one of their play station too.

That's just a part of the trick to lure them to study also, have to keep finding sth interesting to attract them to study, like I'm forcing them to ulangkaji, well, if that help, why not...sometimes I would have the mentality of not giving best coz I feel I can't help much, but guess I have to kept confessing that they will learn and I pray for patience, coz this 2 days, I have not been having much patience coz there I was not feeling well, had the painful head, yet they are not listening when I teach...so I got abit agitated...forgive me Lord !

My food supply also supposedly had finished, somehow God sent ppl just to bring me fish, vege, so I guess my food supply is just ngam ngam to the day I go down. This few days are very cold and I haven't been sleeping well coz the noise kids made at night. Ystd night I really Beh tahan, at 645pm I tot nobody came and I would have my own time alone to sleep, manatau they still came despite rain, simply coz Uni, so I sternly told them I am sick and please don't make too much noise, and surprisingly they were so quiet, praise God..despite all the inconvenient, He is still the all knowing God.

Please continue to pray I'll be strengthen and having the full joy of the Lord serving here..

It's really not easy, esp that i seems to be doing things of my own, coz I am not under any church or organization, nobody really needed anything or request anything from me, I'm pretty free to do what I feel appropriate here, I just pray that God will direct my path. Sometimes I got weary, and feeling of giving up and not to come back, but somehow I felt it's not over yet, so I pray God will strengthen me, let His will be done! 

Will be going home soon, I guess I'm thinking too much, am afraid to come back here after half a month coz dunno the place will be full of cockroaches and spiders not...oh me of little faith! Celina, U must grow, to be and have childlike faith !!!