Waiting for my students to come. Spend some time typing, hp batt gonna be flat off, so might as well finish it off, my solar panel can't charge the USB, so haha, have to wait this Thurs to charge when there is service, now survive on power bank but need conserve it for my travel to KK next week, time passed, one more week I'll be down, heart feel glad coz water run low here at same time heavy coz I don't think the teaching for literacy can be continued..don't know whether I'll come back again. And I wonder how many boxes I'll carry with me next week back KK, pray for good weather and favor.
Ystd dream very very weird dream, each time I dream I don't seems to understand the dream, perhaps I should ask for the Lord to reveal, each time I would just pray that God will speak but I do not specifically say how He will speak, so tonight, I'll pray God will interprete the dream for me. Less than one month I'll be in US, and travel alone...pray that all be good; most important, I pray I'll be able to settle my stuff when I'm back pg, even just 5 days before I fly, God help me to establish all that I needed to back home...
Now at this village, I spent more time praying for prayer request with the Ibu's...feel like early devotion is with them...I still can't establish deep prayer session with the Lord...sigh...its best time to really pray and seek Him, but often time im still occupy with other things although at a village without line and wifi, that how the enemy distract us eh...
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After back from sentral, the water tank level became so low and juz now when I bath, I could see jentik jentik in the water, I still bath nevertheless but my heart feel very geli, and now just feel like having gatal gatal over my body, it's just a feeling, Lord, speed my days here...I can live without food, electricity, line, wifi, but just can't tolerate dirty water 😪 the villager say they will connect water to the tank tonight but still,..the tank is so dirty, and I just feel shy to ask them to wash the tangki...sigh, one more week, Lord please jaga my health, really really miracle I could go thru all this...under no choice circumstances, I can still endure, but if I am to come back, I really have the fear of my life..Lord please help me! I'm counting down..9 more days, Lord I really need your assurance. Please guide me and show me that what I did here really bring progress to village and not just someone who came and cause them to trouble coz I can't used to their water system...I guess I would have to mandi sungai and wash baju at sungai if the water does not come...will my baju be clean? Even now, my legs oredi had a lot marks of mosquitoes and insects, all these are coz of dirty kitchen and toilet where so much mozzie around. I have no problem in room coz I kept it clean, but kitchen and toilet beyond what I can do...indeed I really consider myself wonder women liao...only because of God...I can go through this...what other religion that would touch ppl to go this extend har? Only Christ, the Lord, His love so ever significant that He sent His Son to die for us, so we may follow Him and die to self in our service to Him....it's such a real experience, that God is so real that I can go thru all this....all because He first love me.....
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