Just finished class, I find it's hard for the mom to write, so I guess I would just concentrate on reading only. Today I learnt that when you find joy in the things you do you will do it well, and focus is the key,'compared with Kapulu, I guess I have taught better at Ahuron, coz the focus is really there, I don't have to prepare lesson for the kids and just concentrate on the adult class and I did a lot of writing on papers for them to read, I guess I'd improved compared with Kapulu, indeed experience is a good teacher, but am wondering how come in rship i doesn't seems to really learn by experience? Haha...probably different scenario. I wonder how can teachers who taught for years remain stagnant, coz when I teach I feel that I'm improving, probably still sth new to me, Mayb if I'm really a teacher I would be also bored and run out of idea.
Today as I ponder on Gods word, somehow there is this impression, God will place you to do things other ppl can't do, I'm not sure where I read this, but suddenly it dawn on me deep today, yea, something that I do good that other ppl may not be able to do so, it's my tenacity to stay in the village with basic necessities, and I could survive...this is not what everyone can do, and I should do it well, I kept saying to ppl im mission material, yea I guess so, this is my call, and should I give up because of relationship? Well, I don't know...just pray that he would have the same heart, and vision, otherwise I guess it would really be hard to come together as one. How I really wish that he would be the one, really feel tired paktoh-ing without settling down eh....it has been some time I haven't have a good talk with him, just feeling sth is so missing 😞sometimes still thinking whether God intend me to be single...huhu...shouldn't think so much already la... This 3 weeks I had been thinking deep, with no distraction, and somehow my heart just need to trust Him...total surrender, that's what it means....
Besides the water problem I am actually fine here, but I guess my calling is still children ministry, not so much of adult coz I seems to be quite shy still with the Ibus...not very connected yet, probably language barrier...
Come to calculation of months I'm at Sabah, actually it had been more than 5 months stay already, from 13th April to 23rd Sept 2015...and actually in between I had only spent 2 weeks break at home...other than that it's just seminar and time at KK...time really flies. 5 months I had not been working and out of income, well, God is faithful, I believe He will continue to supply...I had no lack...whereas how long still I will be in Sabah, I don't know, Lord, You lead me. It's quite scary to commit to a ministry and get paid...so I still prefer to be on my own, but how long my saving can last me? Hmm...don't know...just have to take one day a time lah...
Today I find the weather abit hazy, at up high place here it's hazy, wonder how is Penang...loss of connection, seriously don't know what's going on with the world, haha..
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