Yesterday whole day was busy with preparing materials for the literacy class, going through my lesson planned again to ensure no error before send for printing. Was abit disturbed emotionally, but I kept telling myself not to succumb to it...
At night I went for prayer meeting. This was my 2nd prayer meeting in BM church, again, without prior notice I was requested to share why am I in Sabah to encourage the church members...last week was not in top condition coz just back from kampungs...so can't really concentrate much, this week was better, and both weeks, I literally could feel goose bumps, Gods presence was so strong..probably it's really the simplicity of His people bringing their request to the Lord...
And so, I did went out, standing in front of the people and share my heart, and amazing, I realized that I no longer tremble when I speak...normally I would shiver when doing public speaking, heart would be racing so fast...but at 3 different occasion, when I shared...I'm not nervous at all...probably coz no homework requires, coz it's the story of my life, how God have been so real to me...it's really God, not my own strength, I can really feel I'm so at the right place, this is where He place me at this point of time...and I just need to flow along...
After prayer, went home and felt like a battle ground again...I really need Gods grace to fight this, it has been a long fight..when Lord would I ever overcome it?
Today, i continued with the craft preparation. To save cost we decided just to punch cardboard and draw a dot to form the eye for the dragonfly...initial plan was to buy the stick on eyes...here
I am really learning to be creative and resourceful, utilizing every bit of recycle materials for crafts :)
My heart was affected with some commotion today, heart felt burdened, but I just have to move on, the struggles is not against flesh and blood, but against principalities of the dark world and spiritual forces of evil on the heavenly realms...heart is disturbed, nevertheless I have to keep my calm....keep on praying for strength from Abba Father...
So we went into the construction site, where all the kids were, we were welcomed by the children so warmly, seeing our vehicle, the kids just ran to us ..helping us to carry the barang...
We started off with intro of ourself, then we have songs and games with them..it's just too awesome to see these children have a life to live, singing their heart's content and attentively listening to us, though on and off they make a lot noise too...which children don't, right?
Then I shared to them Kisah satu keluarga, taken from prodigal son story, improvise to modern story in non threatening way, not mentioning anything against their religion...and the kids listened and responded well, am so happy to see them hearing attentively..40 kids here is easier to control than my 10 children from my Sunday school....when I shared, I shared with all my heart, forgetting what's at the back of my mind...after that we did craft with them and they really enjoyed it. This is the first time I ever spent more time teaching them craft, holding one kids hand to colour the wings as most children would have known how to colour, but this boy just couldn't...my heart just feel with much compassion...
Right after the street kids ministry, I came back weeping...asking the Lord to check my heart...many times just feel my life so inadequate...but God always assure me...I am His beloved child...what assurance there is in Him...
There would always be ups n downs in life, no matter what, I shouldn't allow it to affect me in my walk with Him, He is faithful, He will not let my tears flow in vain...Looking forward for tomorrow Sunday service, it would be my 2nd week service here...all glory to the Father
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