As I sit and listened to each participants of what they do and what's their vocation, I feel so small, they are co-founder of organization, CEO, general manager, doctors, film producer, and most are holding high position and here they are in Haggai, being equipped more for His work, but why am I here? Just to hear Gods call and confirm it? Have He spoken but I do not hear it? He had arranged and I had missed it?
But He whisper in my heart, if not because of Haggai, I will not be bold and take that step of faith to resign from work. If it's not of Haggai, Sabah won't look so attractive for me, if it's not because of Haggai, I would not seriously think about my vocation and Gods calling. Everything just fall into places, and God is IN it! One set of footprint, it's where when God is carrying me....and it's just that one step of footprint in the sand.
Looking back, if I had not obeyed Him in faithfully giving towards various needs and tithing, I guess I won't be greatly bless this way. Not easy, but when God challenged and I obeyed, He provide for all my needs. So far I have lacked nothing, though with physical eyes, I loose many things, but in His kingdom I had gained much. There must be some form of sacrifices, but count it all joy because the reward is great in heaven. I am not boasting in my own personal life, but I am boasting in the Lord. If not because of the call, my leg would not be scarred coz of many insects bites, I would not have to go thru changes of enviroment that consumed my energy so much, I would not missed so much of my times with my family members, friends and my loved one. But God kept assuring me....before I came to Hawaii, I had dinner w brother and I played and carried Merlyn, and she did not cry. My sis in law was saying me and Merlyn had fate, coz every one that carries her, she would cry because unfamiliarity, but when I carry, she was just calm in my embrace..deep in my heart I knew...because I loved my nieces and nephews, when I was back home, they would recognise me, because that is my concern i raised to God before I left for ministry. He cares for all the little things in my life. All things work together for good to those who love Him. The sacrifice would be worth it all....
No comments:
Post a Comment