One month away from home - 15May 2015 1010am

While waiting for the kindy kids to finish their break, jotting down some thoughts here...It has been a month I am away from home, I'm actually all right to live alone, except for the no electricity and of course family concern. I know God is and have been really faithful to me...many fears had diminished since I first stayed in, if it's not of God, where does the strength and tenacity came from? It has been raining non stop last few days, but that doesn't deter me from going tadika and play w kids, teaching them abc and trying to squeeze them to write...haha...and also the adult class, though I waited for some time coz raining, in the end such joy to see they came, can really see that their heart really want to learn, but unfortunately some of them really can't catch up...and I am wondering how actually to help them :(

I'm slowly getting to the pace of spending quality time with God and each time its a wonderful time, learning of His word and be strengthen...fasting have been so easy now that nobody really control me here, and I don't feel hungry here as much as I did back home, probably there is not much of temptation here and I had a lot of rice that keeps me full. 

Praise God, since now that I have been staying on my own without anyone's company, since the night when I fell and came back wet, I cried unto the Lord, I'm so tired and sick of the cockroaches and spiders, and I'm so afraid...I really cried all my heart out for the Lord to help me, I bind and command all the insects to leave, and this 2 days, I did not see any cockroach in my room, praise Him.

Then yesterday there's another challenge...no water..so have to utilse whatever amount of water left to wash up, utilizing little amount of water to wash hand, then I have to go down to the main tangki to take water to brush teeth, and then went to tadika...let them see laptop and sing ABC, then come back home after rain subside abit..and house left with no water, so in my survival skill, I decided to put 2 pail under the sky to get my sky water...boy, I really make do with whatever I can find here...since weather is so cold,  sort abit of my things up, and found 4 cockroaches inside a box where I kept my unused barang...huhu...thrown the box out and the cocktoaches also escape...then, it's lunch, and since I don't have clean water, so went to canteen and makan...and this cost me RM 5..man..poor the villagers, no wonder they have never go to canteen for food! 

But well, I give thanks also la, at least a proper meal and I gotta makan ayam also...

After adult class, praise God, I see Gods favor again. Someone sent me a big pineapple and veg and fish slice and also sardine.

Then they also went up and took another 2 pails of water for me for my use...with that 4 pails I managed to cook a proper meal, plus to mandi...Many would feel I'm so pitiful here, but am I? Each day I experienced so much of Gods goodness, living with a simplicity of life, and most importantly to enjoy the nature. I know family is worry, but so far, despite all the incompleteness and lack of many things, hygiene, etc, never once I have any problem, compared with when I'm back home, always feel sick, but I'm here all perfectly fine. I manage to even cook my rice with fire wood, haha, interesting :) 

Yes, at times I do feel sien that I always need to clean and kill, haha...but in all these I learn to give thanks for all that mom did for me, and it help me to really experience being the manager of the house :)

I can stand all the inconveniences, but this one thing I can't really withstand is when kids poo 😥

There's one kids in the tadika who cannot control bowel, she always pangsai on her pant, poor teacher always need to help her clean up, and worst, when there is no water, and she pangsai twice, oh...I wanna pengsan liao..first the teacher use the leaf to wipe, then she went down to kolam to take cappuccino colour water to wash, and it's still not clean and when she came into class I can literally see shits on her shirts and it smells...oh no!! This is sth which I can't stand, when she try to get near me, I felt abit uncomfy coz I scared she kena me 😥 it's not just her, but if any boy or girls, even Joel, Jared, Michelle or Merlyn, my own nieces and nephew, I had never wash their poo before...how to be mommy lar? Can't stand changing diaper then! Haha...

Okie, gonna save this and hopefully have time to send later...

Kaki naik tinggi tinggi with candlelight, yesterday...listening to sermon under the rhythm of the rain :) 

Tomorrow will not have line coz am going for Central festival, where all the SIB from many churches will come together for activity :) pray there will be good weather and I'm able to connect with the people there :)