Today my heart is very heavy, such a weight on me...in the morning I felt im not really concentrating well to teach the adult, and noon I felt so restless coz despite they are already std 3&4, the command of language is still poor...and I'm thinking to myself how much can I help 😔 will I make a difference here or am I purely wasting my time here?
Today had conversation with the teacher, they are asking me why am I doing all this? I just smile and just let them know I am tired of work, so do sth meaningful and at same time contribute to the village. He said I will sure go heaven...I wanted so much to tell him that he can too go heaven...but just kept quiet...
Every night the kids will be accompanying me and talk and talk and talk, and play w my things...I began to feel abit of no freedom coz I have to always check on them, otherwise all my bArang they will selongkar...why all the negative thoughts all come together...2 more week I'll be going down to KK...hope I really make the best of this 2 weeks here and not to lose focus...sometimes I do get weary, but somehow I still persevere, knowing and trusting Him...I really pray I am able to discern what is there really for me in my walk with Him!
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