Renewed Strength

I had a very good 1 week plus break...and am grateful for the time to get away and spend with family and friend, most important, getting away from everything else and sat at the feet of Jesus and learn from Him during the camp, having solitude of my own and alot alot alot of sleep during camp too. I guess age is catching up....no longer like those younger days where I go camp, besides to learn of God, I also wanna make friend. This round, purely alot time alone, and connection is secondary, nevertheless I am thankful that I manage to sell all my notebooks and calendar when I was in KL :)  I was abit scared tak laku, anyway, committing to Abba...and yea...I see His hand on it. I still have 80 calendars and notebooks to order...waiting for the new template to launch and I will be hardworking working on best design. Pray I will be able to sell all and the profit will all go to my students. Hmm....sometimes I wonder why do I do that....with all the hardworks, the profit isnt really significant...but I guess I am just doing my part...praying someone will receive the calendar as gift and felt led to sponsors some of my students. Hmm....I am super warden...can go to that extend in helping the kids...

Just wanna pen down highlight of my break...and what the Lord once again spoke into my heart....sometimes, people would wonder, is that for real...how do I hear from God...I guess everybody's experience is different...to me, all my life is about God....and surely it is very unnatural for me to have Godly thoughts, unless it is the Lord....

I had good time catching up with friend frm Penang and thank God she came, otherwise I would feel alone in the wedding. God really have a way of bringing events and people across my path :)
Each wedding would bring different emotion and feelings to me....as I sat in the church, I was reminded again....what the Lord had spoken when I visited the church the 1st time. The same friend who brought me to visit her church, now she is married in the same church. Write a book......revisiting the vision the Lord had laid in my heart, but I am not a discipline person, busyness of life really suck me in many times. It was also my first time witnessing a young man interpreting Pastor's mandarin message to English...oh Lord, that you raise more young man like him :)

I met many of my friend's friend from Kampar...3 of them are Christian....yet they appear the same as everybody else....sitting the same table with them....I just wish I had the opportunity to share, but doesn't have that golden opportunity coz all of them are so busy entertaining their phones and selfies. I do feel abit out of place...if I do not quit my job, I guess I would also be earning well and having quite a gala time of my life....but all those are history liao....anyway, thank God...I am feeling more secure in Christ....but my heart just feel abit sayang....perhaps I am abit unrealistic....but I feel each Christian wedding should bring out the gospel to the max...haha...but not every one think like me....anyway, am glad at least I got the opportunity to talk abit abit about my work and why do I give up job....and I pray those around the table with me...Lord, You will touch them...

On Sunday, I went visit SIB Skyline as my friend have to leave to airport at noon, so SIB Skyline service fits the schedule. I am contemplating to change to SIB Skyline...coz I felt kind of out of place frm Kingdomcity already....I wish I could join them as often as I can, and be connected and do life together, as the slogan says...but I am too far....and it's so hard to really know anyone when I'm like kitkat, now u see now u don't.

Many times really feel alone here....if not coz the assurance after assurance that Abba gave me...I guess I wont last....the message during the service is so apt...both for me and my friend. Pr Joshua Siaw was one sharing the Word...and he is also a young man....very encouraged to see many young man rising up this trip :) The message is nothing new...but the Lord dropped something very significant again in my heart...set apart for him. I always asked the Lord...why me....and why I always have to be one so zealous and care for ppl, but when I needed help, I can only cry out to Abba...but that Sunday...the Lord just impress upon my heart...that I am special, I am set apart for Him...."My life have always been set apart for Him, never look back again, serve Him wholeheartedly...not grumbling and thinking what if and what if again and again. This is the journey He has set apart for you for this season of life, so move on higher with Him...For He is the one who has set you apart for him". I have always said I wanna go back corporate....but I guess....what I needed to do....just never look back anymore and believing Abba have greater things for me.

I received msg frm WA group about East Malaysia, but did not read about it......after sending friend to airport....then only I read it.....and I see how God is putting all the puzzle together....why I did not read the msg earlier.....but after what the Lord had whisper....the WA message came as a confirmation of what the Lord has laid in my heart....so Celina....press on...

Moving Into 5780 and Beyond
Chuck Pierce in Kuching @October 29, 2019

God’s covenant word is built around harvest time as the feasts of the Lord indicated. He wants us to have harvest mentality. The last 70 years (since Israel became a state?) this 5780 ends to a beginning.  Isaiah 32:1 says “See, a king will reign in righteousness and rulers will rule with justice” in a new era. In this island of Borneo, Brunei, Indonesia and Malaysia are entering together. Expect many changes. When God has a plan for the region, He will not stop until He accomplishes it in His perfect moment. God always look to His people seeking Him. Worship to breakthrough in a new way has come to Malaysia. In every key era God sends His new wind of the Spirit. When Jesus said, “And I tell you that you are Peter, and on this rock I will build my church, and the gates of Hades will not overcome it.” (Matthew 16:18), He means upon this rock of revelation, I will build my “ecclesia”. It means He is sending ambassadors into territories to transform them, to bind them and to loose them. It takes 70 years for the church to form. The church needs to assess her strengths and weaknesses and then look for how to correction their weaknesses in order to strengthen them. 

A new wind is blowing in churches of East Malaysia bringing an overcoming anointing. After this I looked, and there before me was a door standing open in heaven. And the voice I had first heard speaking to me like a trumpet said, "Come up here, and I will show you what must take place after this." (Revelation 4:1) In this new era, the war intensifies. It’s the era of the Dragon and the Lion war. God’s people learn to manuevre the war structure and prevail on earth. East Malaysia is the key to the future, a voice of stability. Borneo island becomes a key to awakening Malaysia. Awakening anointing is on Borneo, a new mantle which represents Isaiah 35, a new highway, a new awakening and what planted will be blossomed. Kota Kinabalu (KK) is the miracle gate. In the next 8 months God will cause KK to blossom.  In North East Malaysia I will open up miracle gate for the next decade. Sibu is the seed of decree. In the new season of decree and speaking forth, a new mantle has come to Sibu. When you open your mouth wide, you speak forth prophecy that has been withheld to come to pass. When miracles coming from KK, Sibu will speak forth and will expand your sphere of authority. Over the next 3 years Borneo Island will become the Maritime Center. Kuching represents the new authority, a new identity has come. In this change, a new awakening in the business world. Government will change. Isaiah 45:11, the Lord is saying, “Ask Me of things to come; will you command Me concerning My children and the work of My hands?” WE can command the works of God’s hand to work and then watch for miracles to happen. The Lord says, “My eyes are on this land but it’s up to you to command My hands to operate. Command every detail for it to be accomplished. I AM ready to perform My works in the next 3 years. Sibu shall decree the things and I shall start working. One command, one decree and I’ll start to move.” 

Great change is coming to this island (Borneo). In the next 3 years, there will be conflict over my Rulership But I AM setting an order today, a kingdom people who has My saying for this land. Get ready a new anointing, a new Spirit is coming to My people. My Spirit will begin to manifest in churches, cities and many will say “The atmosphere of East Malaysia has changed.” In the new era My people voice will be heard. I AM raising Judah worshippers from KK to Kuching. Corporate worship incorporate a sound of heaven and the people will cause heaven and earth to align. 

Several things to look at:
1. Ability to call wind to order.
2. Call back what’s been divided into a new dimension
3. Put together a whole new move of the Spirit in the land. 
Time of deliverance. By April next year you will see great changes to this land. Worship with freedom. As the sound of freedom permeates the churches, you’re setting ambush against the enemy. Raising anew generation of worshippers to have stronger sound to prophesy to the 3 generations together. Judah begins to move. 

Apostolic-Prophetic rule must be established to align the 5 fold gifts together.  I am decreeing East Malaysia to align all the gifts of God together, as a model worldwide to see His church rising up with power.  This is how we establish the apostolic prophetic rule:
1. Each person knows his/her sphere of authority and how you align and operate, not just church but church in all cultures of society.  
2. Recognize what God wants to do in the past and bring it into the future.
People in East Malaysia will have the experience to allow the Spirit to come down in great authority in the midst of chaotic conflict. There will be change in Maritime ports of Asia. Indonesia and Malaysia can change. This new season God is going to break through, a new glory dimension is coming to East Malaysia.  A new glory culture to be built, altar to be built in the marketplace and education and the church be renewed. 

A window of heaven has been positioned and God is roaring down from that window and come alive in you. Your roar will be greater than the enemy. Prophet Eisha told king Joash to shoot through that window. Eisha then put his hands on Joash to give him unlimited strength to move forward. But Joash only shot 3 times. It made the old prophet mad because if Joash would shoot 7 times, he would have changed the entire region. Prophetic anointing has been placed in your hands. I am reoving the limits of your past season. I’m giving you new strength allowing you to target what you need to target, so don’t hold back. This is the time you go forward with new strength, new power, new anointing, new revelation. You’ll shoot and keep shooting until Borneo ……
I’m giving you authority for the next 3 years, don’t back down now. Move forward. My Spirit will lead you. First People of the land has the DNA of the land. They have the ability to sing and dance and to unlock the land.  Judah first. Over the next 3 years you will see a new powerful demonstration of worship in Borneo. KK, Sibu, Kuching will affect Indonesia greatly. Worship of heaven and earth align will shake the island.

Normally I dont take prophecy seriously...but this came just as timely....not coz of prophecy....even it doesnt come to pass....to me, it is a confirmation of the same message that the Lord has dropped in my heart....

He is really good...I just cannot help thanking Him for all the goodness in my life...how He so love me....Thank You Abba.

"If you don't know God, you will misunderstand Him, if you misunderstand Him, you will misrepresent Him" - Pr Daniel Foo -

19.10.19

19.10.19 I always love significant date....wanted to write down my thoughts before I get too busy and carried way with my works...

Pictures showed thousand words.....look at my girls.....I am a proud mama

Their kitchen

Their down...5 girls in a pondok 

That is how it looks like outside of the small hut

How excited are my girls worshipping Abba

Sessi berkenalan

Games time

Sharing time

Annointed prayers.....my prayer warrior

My team of 11 - 10 roses and 1 thorn :P 

Valerie shared on visions, how to be successful in life

Ana on moving on....the girl who hurt herself...now being restored and being used by Abba....

Prophetic Acts.

13 Oct 2019

My F3 girls was having their 1 week break frm sch due to SPM phase 1 exam, but I do not allow them to go back coz I want them to help with chores as F4 and F5 is having exam, and I want them to serve the F4 and F5 as when they were having PT3, the bigger girls relieved them frm their duty. After the eventful Christmas celebration in church, after our usual assembly, I had a chat with all my F3 girls, planning some activities with them to keep them occupy, discussing from outings to waterfall, hikings, Kundasang, in the end…agreed to the painting of dorms….and then suddenly the conversation steered to the His Sanctuary of Glory Hostel. 2 girls went with me when I visited the church and hostel with my spiritual father. I wanted to show them how blessed they are living in this luxury hostel where everything is provided for them…even free internet and access to printing which they don’t get to enjoy previously. The 2 girls started to share with others…and in the end when we talked about visiting HSOG, everyone was excited…I was too…in the beginning…but I suddenly felt abit regret coz there is too much that is happening in JHS and now, I add another task into my plate, organising the trip for them, but seeing their enthusiasm, of course I wanted to compliment them, so I shared with them on what mission trip is all about, things they wanna do there and also some warning that I do not want to see them going in a group of 10 but coming back in 3 different groups due to differences of opinion, etc. I asked them to prepare the program and they all have to plan entire trip with minimal input frm me (partly coz I am too busy to manage too). So they showed me the rough plan…and there they go….

10 girls and 1 boy, all F3, were launched out on 16 Oct to minister to other students as they had received much here. They stayed a night at hostel at HSOG, Bengkongan to minister to a group of 10 students who stay at hostel run by a local pastor. 5 boys and 5 girls basically stay in a hut built by pastor himself, and basically they are living in the means, probably below means. It would be their personal journey with the Lord....leading themselves to minister at His Sanctuary of Glory hostel...and I did not plan to be there all the time as I am trusting God to lead them. However since on Wed night my afternoon session girls needed to get present for Friday's Christmas gift exchange, I need to bring them to KM on Wed night itself, so I thought to myself…I might as well drop by HSOG to visit and see what's going on. That was my first time ever driving along the kampung road with no lamp post to that distance, but it is worth it. My girls surprised me w their msg, and ministering. My girl was sharing about moving on.... Because God has greater thing... And she did something very prophetic, she asked us to write on paper our struggles and things holding us back, and they did a camp fire to burn the paper, as a symbol of letting go and let God. It was so prophetic. I am sure they do not know that is an prophetic act….but I am fully aware it is….where they got this idea, if not because of the Holy SPirit giving them the inspiration.

Earlier in the morning, despite the busyness….I was feeling quite rejected and down because of a person I am still holding on, I wasn’t aware of it or rather I am living in denial…It had been 4 years now, yet every year, I still felt pained because of the short replied he had for me, leaving me into abandonment again, and again. I know I have to let go, but somehow, I realised it was just denial…every year on 16 Oct…I would send a birthday wish to him no matter how busy I was…every now and then, I would still texted him to find that it still hurt as ever, when all I got is just Noted, TQ, and Yes. And that night itself….when my girl spoke about moving on…it was like a nail hitting right at my heart….and I know that's it….I wept, and I asked the Lord to heal my heart and help me to totally let go….and on that piece of paper it was my request to Abba and I let it burned……and I came back…finally deleting all his pics in my hp and fb…..Moving on….

If I would to skipped the service, I wouldn’t have seen how my girls served the 10 boys and girls there, I wouldn’t have experienced breakthrough, I wouldn’t have seen how powerful they could minister, and how creative of them to use different approach to bring the message across. I guess God already knew what is going to happen….that night basically is my night of breakthrough. On my 2 girls sharing…WOW….I am seeing like a duplicate Celina addressing the students. Indeed, I realised how important leaving a legacy to the kids…and whatever I taught them, the way I presented it…it was like they are mimicking me, yet, they are led by the Holy Spirit in their content. I am so so touched by how God had changed them and mould them. They used to be gangs in the f3 group, but now I am seeing just 1 team….my heart really feel so so glad.

What led them or me to this point where I allow and trust them to be on their own, without my supervision throughout the 2 days, I don’t know, all I know I prayed very hard for them, and I trusted Abba will grant them amazing experience. It is through mission trip that Abba always speaks to my heart…with same faith I am believing Abba to do the same for them, and yes…He did. I heard a lot of good testimonies, even frm the pastor himself….and all this…none other than Christ's work in them. There isnt many plannings, just the 2 days after the discussion, and there they go…and I believe it is accumulation of what they had been taught by various pastors and friends who came to minister and share to my girls…it is really the work of the Holy Spirit in them…none of my fleshly works. Tired? Yea….but it is worth it all to see their growth and progress.

There are so much things to write about….but this will do…I will always remember this significant date…16.10.19…a day where I finally let go…..and I hope….I will not turn back again. All the praise and glory to Abba.

Thank You Jesus 😭

Reassurance & reaffirmation. Lord how can I thank you enough for all You had brought me through and how You always given the best to me..

27.09.19 Abba Revives Us

He is good. Each day as I lay down my burden at His feet, all the worries and burden unto Him, I see how Abba allow me to realise many things and grow, oh how I am amazed by His love. There are sth that's going to break out....but what's that. Consecrated life, righteous life, Lord help Mr to pursue it Abba!

15 Sept 2019

Today is the day, where the Holy Spirit was poured in the hostel. For past weeks.....this revival meeting have been in my mind and prayer....and I was excited when I found out it has live stream...and for past 2 nights i had been showing it to the students and tonight, some of them received the baptism of the Holy Spirit and I believe many of them have been filled, but they are just shy to open their mouth. Some F1 girls...which i always thought too young to understand, tonight....Abba has filled her....oh what joy I have.

I pray that this will not be the end....I constantly have taught them, impart and after 9 months sowing into their life....now I am slowly letting loose and allow God to continue to work, not so much teachings already, but more of impartations and love, and encouragement.....I am really so thankful....how Abba brought me through....

Saturday morning I was going through books of Ezekiel....I had been running behind schedule for my bible reading....and I am only at Ezekiel...and Saturday night itself Pr Philip spoke about Ezekiel 37. Last Wednesday, I read Ezekiel 33 through to 43....and I shared with the kids here on Wed on Eze 33-34....and there are some questions I asked Abba on Ez 37, and He answered me through the sermon...How God knows how to reach me....this morning I was on Joel...and tonight message was in Acts 16 on the pouring out of Holy Spirit, as it is in book of Joel...is this mere coincident? Lord...is this the message for me personally or for the students? Tonight I just felt such a strong annointing of the Holy Spirit....and I just know that He has a consistent message for me...He will do great things through me....and whatever He has imparted to me...thats what I impart to the next generations.

Nothing is coincident in Him! I believe...He is leading the way...and Lord...help me to persevere...running the race without feeling weary....Abba help me not to be distracted with the things of this world....but let me just focus in You and You alone Abba....you know my deepest desire...and you grant you Daughter what she desired in Your perfect timing....help me to be patience meanwhile Abba....thank You for all that you had done in my life...I am eternally grateful....Love YOU ABBA

Your daughter,
Celina

1 Sept 2019

Today, I broke down again in church....not because I was sad...again, when I see my students rise, and so love Abba, my heart cant contain the joy...
I was quite upset due to what happened to me and the pastor, I just couldn't comprehend why a pastor could behave like that, and guess as much as I wanted to be strong, I couldn't. I felt so rejected...yet in front of student I got to appear calm...as if nothing happen inside of me. I just dont like people having sour face to me...i dont like to see sad face, what more and angry face....In my heart...i was contemplating just to go another church, better that way as she don't have to see me eye to eye...thank God for Godly counsel...I telan, for sake of bearing testimony to student, I did not behave according to my emotion. So I went to church this morning....and God just touched me....Thank God i sat right at the back, no one looking, haha....but yea...some girls do look behind and saw me...but this is not the first time...so it is OK...I am also human with feeling...

A girl, full of potential, 2 months ago, she cut herself, she wrote letter which surprised me, someone I see so beautiful in the eyes of God, such a potential in her...but the thing she did hurt me, hurt her family and I am sure God is not pleased too...I prayed for her, I asked for prayer for her, I cried for her, spoke to her mom, and slowly she recovered, though she did not share openly what had happened, but I pray God sustain her...2 mths down the road...seeing her growing, esp after Teenstreet camp, and how she is opening up to me now, and she is just like a daughter to me, one that I love, of many others. There wont be absolute fairness in how I treat all of them because all are made differently, but I know there are few girls that I really pray they will rise up and do well coz they love Jesus...their life and character showed....and how I wish I would see them grow and serve the Lord....

I was so touched...and the Lord always never fail to remind me....they are your precious, love them....it is like a mandate I could never run away.....each smile on their face light my life up...and each tears they cried put me into cries too....Lord, that You will use them mightily...

There are many questions in my mind....on my future, my destiny...but Lord, please hold me up always...always always think and trust You no matter what....

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I just love this....so so true...