19.10.19 I always love significant date....wanted to write down my thoughts before I get too busy and carried way with my works...
Pictures showed thousand words.....look at my girls.....I am a proud mama
Their kitchen
Their down...5 girls in a pondok
That is how it looks like outside of the small hut
How excited are my girls worshipping Abba
Sessi berkenalan
Games time
Sharing time
Annointed prayers.....my prayer warrior
My team of 11 - 10 roses and 1 thorn :P
Valerie shared on visions, how to be successful in life
Ana on moving on....the girl who hurt herself...now being restored and being used by Abba....
Prophetic Acts.
13 Oct 2019
My F3 girls was having their 1 week break frm sch due to SPM
phase 1 exam, but I do not allow them to go back coz I want them to help with
chores as F4 and F5 is having exam, and I want them to serve the F4 and F5 as
when they were having PT3, the bigger girls relieved them frm their duty. After
the eventful Christmas celebration in church, after our usual assembly, I had a
chat with all my F3 girls, planning some activities with them to keep them
occupy, discussing from outings to waterfall, hikings, Kundasang, in the end…agreed
to the painting of dorms….and then suddenly the conversation steered to the His
Sanctuary of Glory Hostel. 2 girls went with me when I visited the church and
hostel with my spiritual father. I wanted to show them how blessed they are
living in this luxury hostel where everything is provided for them…even free
internet and access to printing which they don’t get to enjoy previously. The 2
girls started to share with others…and in the end when we talked about visiting
HSOG, everyone was excited…I was too…in the beginning…but I suddenly felt abit
regret coz there is too much that is happening in JHS and now, I add another
task into my plate, organising the trip for them, but seeing their enthusiasm,
of course I wanted to compliment them, so I shared with them on what mission
trip is all about, things they wanna do there and also some warning that I do
not want to see them going in a group of 10 but coming back in 3 different groups
due to differences of opinion, etc. I asked them to prepare the program and
they all have to plan entire trip with minimal input frm me (partly coz I am
too busy to manage too). So they showed me the rough plan…and there they go….
10 girls and 1 boy, all F3, were launched out on 16 Oct to
minister to other students as they had received much here. They stayed a night
at hostel at HSOG, Bengkongan to minister to a group of 10 students who stay at
hostel run by a local pastor. 5 boys and 5 girls basically stay in a hut built by
pastor himself, and basically they are living in the means, probably below
means. It would be their personal journey with the Lord....leading themselves
to minister at His Sanctuary of Glory hostel...and I did not plan to be there
all the time as I am trusting God to lead them. However since on Wed night my
afternoon session girls needed to get present for Friday's Christmas gift
exchange, I need to bring them to KM on Wed night itself, so I thought to
myself…I might as well drop by HSOG to visit and see what's going on. That was
my first time ever driving along the kampung road with no lamp post to that
distance, but it is worth it. My girls surprised me w their msg, and
ministering. My girl was sharing about moving on.... Because God has greater
thing... And she did something very prophetic, she asked us to write on paper
our struggles and things holding us back, and they did a camp fire to burn the
paper, as a symbol of letting go and let God. It was so prophetic. I am sure
they do not know that is an prophetic act….but I am fully aware it is….where
they got this idea, if not because of the Holy SPirit giving them the
inspiration.
Earlier in the morning, despite the busyness….I was feeling
quite rejected and down because of a person I am still holding on, I wasn’t aware
of it or rather I am living in denial…It had been 4 years now, yet every year, I
still felt pained because of the short replied he had for me, leaving me into
abandonment again, and again. I know I have to let go, but somehow, I realised
it was just denial…every year on 16 Oct…I would send a birthday wish to him no
matter how busy I was…every now and then, I would still texted him to find that
it still hurt as ever, when all I got is just Noted, TQ, and Yes. And that
night itself….when my girl spoke about moving on…it was like a nail hitting
right at my heart….and I know that's it….I wept, and I asked the Lord to heal
my heart and help me to totally let go….and on that piece of paper it was my
request to Abba and I let it burned……and I came back…finally deleting all his
pics in my hp and fb…..Moving on….
If I would to skipped the service, I wouldn’t have seen how
my girls served the 10 boys and girls there, I wouldn’t have experienced
breakthrough, I wouldn’t have seen how powerful they could minister, and how
creative of them to use different approach to bring the message across. I guess
God already knew what is going to happen….that night basically is my night of
breakthrough. On my 2 girls sharing…WOW….I am seeing like a duplicate Celina addressing
the students. Indeed, I realised how important leaving a legacy to the kids…and
whatever I taught them, the way I presented it…it was like they are mimicking
me, yet, they are led by the Holy Spirit in their content. I am so so touched
by how God had changed them and mould them. They used to be gangs in the f3
group, but now I am seeing just 1 team….my heart really feel so so glad.
What led them or me to this point where I allow and trust
them to be on their own, without my supervision throughout the 2 days, I don’t
know, all I know I prayed very hard for them, and I trusted Abba will grant
them amazing experience. It is through mission trip that Abba always speaks to
my heart…with same faith I am believing Abba to do the same for them, and yes…He
did. I heard a lot of good testimonies, even frm the pastor himself….and all
this…none other than Christ's work in them. There isnt many plannings, just the
2 days after the discussion, and there they go…and I believe it is accumulation
of what they had been taught by various pastors and friends who came to
minister and share to my girls…it is really the work of the Holy Spirit in them…none
of my fleshly works. Tired? Yea….but it is worth it all to see their growth and
progress.
There are so much things to write about….but this will do…I
will always remember this significant date…16.10.19…a day where I finally let
go…..and I hope….I will not turn back again. All the praise and glory to Abba.
