30 July 2019

Paul once said: “The Spirit ... helps our weaknesses; for we do not know how to pray as we should but ... intercedes for us ...” (Rom 8:26). Aren’t you glad that you have someone to represent you before God when you are too heart broken with painful circumstances? When you are too exhausted and you don’t know how to express your sorrow before Him? God has given His Spirit who dwells within you and will not only sees the depths of your wounded and crushed feelings but will translate those feelings and articulating them before God. He fully understands what you need. So, you need not fear if God will acknowledge the cries of your heart because the Spirit does the work of transforming your petitions into acceptable and pleasing sacrifices. Even when you think you are failing in your prayers, He ensures that you are heard. Most of all, He guarantees that all those trials you are facing are not in vain but your faith will be built up as you respond to Him in obedience.

He is always timely. Had a very good chat with mama Meng...what I needed most, someone who would hold my hand and pray.... God sent two, and I believe hearing my testimony of how God brought me through each and every trials and obstacles have in a way encourage a sister that I just know. And how both commit me in prayer, it meant so much to me...been crying alot recently....guess that's my way of releasing myself.... Always remember Psalm 56:8 that God collect my tears 🤣 thinking back, why do I get so upset with the kids? They really have improved a lot, why must I be so hard on myself that whenever they slack, I will deem myself as bad warden? One that never teach them well.... LORD help me.... Guess this morning God taught them a very valuable lesson. I'd mention to them, but now it happen right in front of all of them, all eyes have seen, while all of them are enjoying their breakfast, here came the warden to take her portion and found not a single plate left for warden. I responded well to them, with a loud voice, I said, oh no breakfast left for me...so sad, but its OK... And I could hear pin drop if there is, coz complete silence. Well, this is not the first time, and I'd told them nicely, what are ways to appreciate me and its not just say but with action... Today all of them faced the immediate reality of their selfishness... And I believe many of them felt bad, anyway... God allow things happen for reason... And after 1 hour I got a fried noodles frm them, but I'd oredi my own milo and biscuits and therefore rejected their offer coz I was full and I gotta eat brekkie fast coz I needed to take my supplement.
Not that I wanted them to serve me, but what a disappointment that they would keep food for their friends, but why never think of their warden who tirelessly take care of them? Am I not worth anything to them and being taken advantage? Hmm... Still a human which needs love lar... And appreciation... Anyway we had a good day outing just now, but came back dead tired... Time to rest and recuperate again....