It was an unplanned thingy and she is willing to come all da way frm serdang to meet me, so paiseh for me to reject. Had good time with her
26 June 2019, 9.30 am
Hmm....the above message was truncated since 5 June 19 :) Busyness in life...takes all of me...that I always have to tell myself to pace down and rest...
Yesterday was really an overwhelming day...woke up 5am...have my time alone, then prayer with all the girls...and then start preparing to cook for my girls. That was my first time ever in life cooking for 46 students and I kind of dread it coz it was their mistake not telling me that all have to go school at the same time, leaving no one to prepare lunch for them. I can in a form of strike, dont do anything, let them come back hungry and cook their own meal...but guess that is not how I am wired....full of love and compassion....as usual...though mouth cakap tak mau...I will still do it...so prepare all ingredients that I can...and then I felt I should take a nap...so went into room and rest, in less than 15 mins...warden next door call and said someone wanna see me....so up I go...and driver passed dress for my girls...which he suppose to send to sch but he sent it to hostel...and knowing my girls been waiting for the dress for their hari guru n raya cina, raya melayu....so...drove myself to their sch and pass them their dress...came back..it was already 9 plus....and there I am....start to cut my vege and preparing to cook....finished cooking, thought now I can take rest...warden wife call me...to go lunch with her....so...again....i went out...haha.....thats the consequences of not being able to say no...but its ok...coz I always enjoyed the fellowship with her and pray she will rise to the occassion to be a good warden's wife and support much as she can ...
Came back...was abit upset...hostel is quite messy, and I had a good lecture to the girls...and asked them to do their duty....then, slowly began to find out many are having boyfriends in school...and during the 4 days I was away, some girls broke rules, etc...was abit disappointed...its like one after another and I was dead tired...but one after another, I called into office for query and then even more disappointment to find out more...thats why I never wanted to probe the kids here unless they tell me truth, but coz I was away for many days, just wanna find out how they are doing here without me around...manatau...backfire...so many things I find out...perhaps it is a sign that Abba dont want me to be over confident over my girls. I am kind of proud of them...to me they are the best girls I ever had...so far things been fine...they are obedient and I can see many positive improvement...but...yea...young people...thats the challenges they face...yesterday, really so so tired...from 4pm to 10pm...counselling more than 10 girls...so so draining...
This morning woke up...the circle continue...but I was more calm...and God spoke sth into my heart....Lord...thank you for this revelation. Help me to do the best I can....seal them in your precious blood that no scheme of the enemy will be able to influence them...
Personally for me....really have grown so much....sometimes...I am amazed by my own calmness and not affected much by emotions anymore...still abit...but it takes lesser time to overcome it....and I am so thankful for Abba to send Pr Jeremiah last week to minister here...how He knows just the right timing. Also...how God had provided for my car break repair even before it broke down....God is really good. The Melaka team that came, a sister gave me offering of RM 500, and she emphasis it is for me....probably she knew thru pastor that the last time I receive the offering I actually given it away to the male warden & wife and a volunteer...like this time, somehow He know that I am going to need this money and she emphasis the money for me....so I kept that for myself....and wow....less than 1 week...haha...I needed RM 520 for the repair of car...and I am thankful He had preserved me....coz I could have lose control of car if it broke down totally while I was driving....I know for sure...the angels is taking care of me....
Many people are amazed at my boldness to step out and serve....but to me, anyone can be as me...all they needed is that first step and the rest...guarantee Abba will take care, and no one would be able to relate to my experience, except myself...the journey is great....but sometimes can be very lonely...coz no one can identify with me...many ppl said...oh Celina you are doing great job...my standard answer it is all Him and do please pray for me and my ministry here....but I wonder how many really take that seriously and carry the mantle of prayer for me....not to judge....but it is normal, even myself...sometimes I said I pray for you...but do I really take time to feel how they feel...so many are guilty of that....I thank God for Pr Goh and my papa....without them, I guess I wont be that strong....
Lord...continue to fan that zeal in my heart, in times of weariness...let me always lean back to You and never give up...Thank you Abba....for the grace and mercy you bestow into my life...i am forever grateful to you...Help my family to grow as well, esp my sis, in her family...bind them as a family and never allow enemy to sow seed of unforgiveness, for my koko and family...for their salvation...Abba...it has been such a long years...dont let me wait so long Abba.....let them have that special encounter with you...and for mommy...take care of her health and safety as she stay alone in the house...help me not to entertain the negative thoughts that I always take care of other people but neglect my own family....Help me Lord to rise above all situation and lead me to be where You want me to be Abba....TQ Jesus....the lover of my soul, my best friend, my all in all......
26 June 2019, 9.30 am
Hmm....the above message was truncated since 5 June 19 :) Busyness in life...takes all of me...that I always have to tell myself to pace down and rest...
Yesterday was really an overwhelming day...woke up 5am...have my time alone, then prayer with all the girls...and then start preparing to cook for my girls. That was my first time ever in life cooking for 46 students and I kind of dread it coz it was their mistake not telling me that all have to go school at the same time, leaving no one to prepare lunch for them. I can in a form of strike, dont do anything, let them come back hungry and cook their own meal...but guess that is not how I am wired....full of love and compassion....as usual...though mouth cakap tak mau...I will still do it...so prepare all ingredients that I can...and then I felt I should take a nap...so went into room and rest, in less than 15 mins...warden next door call and said someone wanna see me....so up I go...and driver passed dress for my girls...which he suppose to send to sch but he sent it to hostel...and knowing my girls been waiting for the dress for their hari guru n raya cina, raya melayu....so...drove myself to their sch and pass them their dress...came back..it was already 9 plus....and there I am....start to cut my vege and preparing to cook....finished cooking, thought now I can take rest...warden wife call me...to go lunch with her....so...again....i went out...haha.....thats the consequences of not being able to say no...but its ok...coz I always enjoyed the fellowship with her and pray she will rise to the occassion to be a good warden's wife and support much as she can ...
Came back...was abit upset...hostel is quite messy, and I had a good lecture to the girls...and asked them to do their duty....then, slowly began to find out many are having boyfriends in school...and during the 4 days I was away, some girls broke rules, etc...was abit disappointed...its like one after another and I was dead tired...but one after another, I called into office for query and then even more disappointment to find out more...thats why I never wanted to probe the kids here unless they tell me truth, but coz I was away for many days, just wanna find out how they are doing here without me around...manatau...backfire...so many things I find out...perhaps it is a sign that Abba dont want me to be over confident over my girls. I am kind of proud of them...to me they are the best girls I ever had...so far things been fine...they are obedient and I can see many positive improvement...but...yea...young people...thats the challenges they face...yesterday, really so so tired...from 4pm to 10pm...counselling more than 10 girls...so so draining...
This morning woke up...the circle continue...but I was more calm...and God spoke sth into my heart....Lord...thank you for this revelation. Help me to do the best I can....seal them in your precious blood that no scheme of the enemy will be able to influence them...
Personally for me....really have grown so much....sometimes...I am amazed by my own calmness and not affected much by emotions anymore...still abit...but it takes lesser time to overcome it....and I am so thankful for Abba to send Pr Jeremiah last week to minister here...how He knows just the right timing. Also...how God had provided for my car break repair even before it broke down....God is really good. The Melaka team that came, a sister gave me offering of RM 500, and she emphasis it is for me....probably she knew thru pastor that the last time I receive the offering I actually given it away to the male warden & wife and a volunteer...like this time, somehow He know that I am going to need this money and she emphasis the money for me....so I kept that for myself....and wow....less than 1 week...haha...I needed RM 520 for the repair of car...and I am thankful He had preserved me....coz I could have lose control of car if it broke down totally while I was driving....I know for sure...the angels is taking care of me....
Many people are amazed at my boldness to step out and serve....but to me, anyone can be as me...all they needed is that first step and the rest...guarantee Abba will take care, and no one would be able to relate to my experience, except myself...the journey is great....but sometimes can be very lonely...coz no one can identify with me...many ppl said...oh Celina you are doing great job...my standard answer it is all Him and do please pray for me and my ministry here....but I wonder how many really take that seriously and carry the mantle of prayer for me....not to judge....but it is normal, even myself...sometimes I said I pray for you...but do I really take time to feel how they feel...so many are guilty of that....I thank God for Pr Goh and my papa....without them, I guess I wont be that strong....
Lord...continue to fan that zeal in my heart, in times of weariness...let me always lean back to You and never give up...Thank you Abba....for the grace and mercy you bestow into my life...i am forever grateful to you...Help my family to grow as well, esp my sis, in her family...bind them as a family and never allow enemy to sow seed of unforgiveness, for my koko and family...for their salvation...Abba...it has been such a long years...dont let me wait so long Abba.....let them have that special encounter with you...and for mommy...take care of her health and safety as she stay alone in the house...help me not to entertain the negative thoughts that I always take care of other people but neglect my own family....Help me Lord to rise above all situation and lead me to be where You want me to be Abba....TQ Jesus....the lover of my soul, my best friend, my all in all......
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