Tears of Joy - 9/7/16 12.30am

Im just reminded of the verse that those who sow in tears will reap in joy. As I am writing this, my tears just couldn't stop flowing...how do I ended up being a full time worker and now are impacting life of young people, how God had placed such burden for the people and how God had enable to me do greater things. 

I was a girl full of fears and concern. Despite all the inadequacy, God kept challenges me to rise up and take position, and I am slowly allowing God to really take control and hold that sterling of my life's wheel. It's really scary at times but all the more I am seeing Hos glory. 

I desire to drive the van and pick them for outings, bring them to places they have never been, and God gave me courage to drive the van although my heart is full of fears but God really took care of me and the ppl I fetched. Never in my life I could imagine driving a van of 15 ppl, and going to place like teluk bahang, never also it crosses my mind to access the places that I need to drive until that moment can and I got shock of myself that how come I never think of it before, anyway I drive with the confidence God has given me.

Van with loads of them

Then the camp took event with just less than 2 weeks planning and one time meeting with 3 students which I did not even know them or work with them before. But somehow we clicked and things got running. They had enjoyed themselves and the most joy is seeing all of them having a change of heart, to be open with one another and boldness in sharing after much encouragement.

This scene moved me deeply...because I literally see how this young boy shed his tears, if it's not God, who else? It's never in my agenda to have this session, but somehow just a simple get together to pray and God just moved. Lord, I am so so amazed by You.

So much fun we had, as well as throughout the trip I could feel the bonding between them. Despite the big hu ha about the other 3 boys and also one student's sudden death of her sis, God moved among these people, such encouragement to hear these testimony from them, it really brought me so so much joy. These time and money sown into their life is never in vain, God, thank You, thank You so so so much for Your love! 

Such joy